Monday, 30 November 2020

Roger Delgado


            On Sunday I worked out the chords for the second verse of “A la pêche des coeurs" (Fishing for Hearts) by Boris Vian. The rest should just be alternating repetitions of the chords of the first two verses. 
            I made a push to finish memorizing all of the rest of “Lucette et Lucie" by Serge Gainsbourg but I didn't quite nail it. Probably on Monday I’ll have it in my head. 
            Song practice went a lot more smoothly than it has for the last few days and tuning was easier. On several occasions I was able to get the B string back in tune without the tuner and when I did use the tuner it didn’t take as long. I ended up finishing 45 minutes sooner than the day before, although that’s still more than fifteen minutes more than the bad side of normal. 
            I had old cheddar on crackers, and a bran muffin for lunch. The muffin was too much. 
            I wrote this weeks tutorial question for British Literature: 

            Comparing Andrew Marvell's and John Milton's poetic accounts of the reasons for the creation of Eve: In stanza 8, lines 61-62 of Marvell’s "The Garden" there is a musical structuring of assonance, rhyme and internal rhyme. “But twas beyond a mortal’s share / to wander solitary there.” The lines connect not only at the end rhyme but also with “beyond a" and "to wander". “Beyond a” waltzes in assonance with “mortal” as does "wander" with “solitary.” Marvell carves meaning from these harmonious sound connections. The musicality and the flow draws the reader’s emotions into the intellectual message that lays out the key reasons for the first person to have a companion: It is beyond mortal to wander solitary. The phrasing of these verses could easily be made into a song. 
            Compare this to lines 444-445 in Book 8 of Milton’s Paradise Lost: “And be so minded still. Ere thou spak’st / I knew it no good for man to be alone.” Milton is simply using words to tell a story here, with much less applied artistry. There is of course vision and creativity in the overall epic of Paradise Lost, but in its finer details there is less delicacy of form. By eschewing rhyme, slant rhyme, internal rhyme and assonance, along with the rhythms that those techniques evoke, he fell short of beauty. In choosing to simply tell a story in blank verse, while claiming that rhyming is a “vulgar” practice, was it really because Milton was not up to the task of the artful sculpting of language? 

            I piddled around with my British Literature essay for a couple of hours. 
            At around 19:30 at least ten cop cars converged in the area. One stopped at O’Hara and Queen, four went up O’Hara, I assume to the West Lodge apartment complex, one blocked Queen Street at Lansdowne and kept its siren on while it was sitting there. It was very annoying. I assume the rest went up West Lodge east of Lansdowne. 
            For dinner I boiled some catalini hollow spiral pasta and topped it some of the sauce I’d prepared the night before and the cheese. I had it with a beer while watching episode four of Quatermass II.
            In this story Quatermass determines that the asteroid that is sending the hollow meteors to earth is artificial and probably comes from one of the planets or moons of our outer solar system where the atmosphere is similar to the gasses in the meteors. He suspects that it’s Titan the moon of Saturn. Each meteor contains a creature in gas form that can take over the consciousness of any human that finds the space object. He also thinks that they share a collective consciousness so that whatever one knows they all know. Quatermass prepares his rocket for launch as a last resort to aim it at the asteroid and cause a nuclear explosion if things get out of hand on Earth. Quatermass sends Fowler back to the ministry to collect all the files on the synthetic food plant but when he does so there is a device inside the filing cabinet that infects him with the gas. Quatermass meets with a journalist named Hugh Conrad and they drive up to a pub in the prefab village where the people live that work at the plant. There is a celebration going on as an elderly couple, Mr and Mrs McLeod are going to renew their vows. Quatermass buys everyone drinks and pumps the couple for information. They are all very happy working at the plant because they are well paid and in fact right now they are laid off with full wages. They call the people in charge and the security staff “zombies” because they never talk with them. They recognize Hugh Conrad from his columns and realize they are being pumped for information. They become angry because if their bosses learn they’ve been talking they will be fired. Suddenly a meteor crashes through the ceiling. The workers have been told that some objects just get accidentally blown out of the plant. Quatermass and Conrad leave and it seems that Conrad might have touched the meteor. They go into the plant and Quatermass tells Conrad to phone the story back to his newspaper. He does so but reveals in the call that he is infected and is about to lose control. Meanwhile Quatermass dons a spare uniform and investigates one of the tanks. Inside he finds one of the inhuman aliens bubbling in a noxious fluid. 
            Conrad was played by Roger Delgado, who played the first Master on Doctor Who. In fact the character was created specifically for Delgado to play. He certainly was the best one up until Missy came along. I don’t think I’d ever seen him as a good guy before. After this appearance in Quatermass he became popular as the character Mendoza in the TV series “Sir Francis Drake". Delgado's death was one of the reasons that his friend John Pertree quit Doctor Who. 
            Mrs McCleod was played by Elsie Arnold, who was in the cast of the TV series Jane Ayre. 
            The barmaid was played by Queenie Barrat.

November 30, 1990: I discovered that my journal was skewed by one day, so I made this date blank to correct it


Thirty years ago today

            There was no diary entry for this day because I discovered back then that I'd been skewing all of the entries by one day for a few weeks. It had probably started the week that Nancy left for New York. So I guess my November 29 entry should have been today, and so on.

Sunday, 29 November 2020

Hugh Griffith


            On Saturday morning I finished working out the chords to the first verse of “A la pêche des coeurs" (Fishing for Hearts) by Boris Vian. 
            I memorized the fourth verse and the chorus of “Lucette et Lucie” by Serge Gainsbourg. 
            Song practice was once again a trial with more tuning troubles. One breakthrough is that I’ve learned that if it’s only the B string that has gone off then I can get it back without the tuner. That is often the case but if the E string also goes sharp or flat then I can’t figure them both out by ear. Then I spent ten minutes or more between each song trying to get the tuning back into place with the tuner. A couple of times I got so frustrated that I started crying. I didn’t cry while I was tuning but rather after I finally had it in tune for a while and had begun singing. Singing while sobbing sounds horrible and it looks bad too. Now that I have an older face I look especially ugly when I’m weeping. 
            In the late morning I went to No Frills where I bought four bags of grapes, a half pint of blueberries, mouthwash, dental floss, detergent, and paper towels. At an empty shelf a little old man had spread out his coins, which were mostly nickels and seemed to be carefully counting them. After buying yogourt from the other side of the store I remembered that I’d forgotten to get Irish Spring, honey and olive oil. I went back down the paper towel aisle and the old man was still there counting. I thought later that maybe I should have just slipped him $5. But then again, maybe he's really eccentric owner of the store and he comes around to collect all the nickels from the cash registers and looks through them for rare coins. 
            I had Breton crackers and old cheddar for lunch. 
            I worked on my British Literature essay for a couple of hours until my brain gave out. 
            For dinner I bumped up a can of pasta sauce with sautéed onions, garlic, and Chinese chili sauce. I had it on some rotini and some cheese on top and ate it with a beer while watching part three of Quatermass II. 
            This story begins with Quatermass and member of parliament Broadhead attending a meeting of members of the ministry that has been financing the restricted plant by the meteor site. All of the members act as if they are in a trance and they all bear a mark from meteor contact. Quatermass leaves to talk to Fowler and when they return they find Broadhead alone, marked and also in a trance. Quatermass meets with Fowler and a man named Rupert Ward in an espresso bar. This is 1955 and the waitress laments that the trend is now tea places and no one appreciates a good cup of coffee anymore. Ward has a government pass to the facility and he has been there six times to deliver members of a tour, but he never stayed to look around. Quatermass wants him to use his pass to take him and Fowler inside. Meanwhile on a beach outside the facility a mother and father and their teenage son have stopped to have a picnic on the beach. The soldiers come with guns to tell them to leave. The middle aged father is standing up to the armed guard when Quatermass’s car passes. Inside the facility there ate more zombielike workers. He learns that the “food” tanks are pumped with ammonia and methane. Ward wanders off and while looking for him they see him stumbling down the steps on the outside of one of the tanks. He is covered in slime because he slipped inside while investigating. He dies and Quatermass takes his slime covered necktie for analysis. The car belonging to the family on the beach is towed into the facility with a limp arm hanging out of the window. While the gate is open Quatermass and Fowler drive through. At the rocket group the tie is analyzed and it is found that the “food” would be poisonous to any human. Quatermass thinks it is food for something for which oxygen may be poison. Pugh has calculated that the meteors are coming from an asteroid that approaches the Earth every 48 hours. 
           The waitress was played by Margaret Flint, who was in the movie “Silent Playground". 
           The mother was played by Illona Ference, who was a castmember of the TV series “Solo for Canary". 
           Pugh was played by Hugh Griffith who graduated from the Royal Academy of Dramatic Art at the top of a class of 300. He was nominated for a Tony Award for his performance in Look Homeward Angel. He won the 1959 Best Supporting Actor Oscar for playing Sheikh Ilderim in Ben Hur. In 1963 he was nominated for another Academy Award for his supporting role in Tom Jones. The scene in which the horse falls on him was not planned and it resulted from him riding drunk. He was a lifelong friend and drinking companion of Dylan Thomas. He was fired from “How to Steal a Million” for persistent bad behaviour, such as wandering naked through the corridors of the hotel while wearing a sign over his genitals that read, “Do disturb.”

November 29, 1990: The Spotted Dick was crowded, The Morrissey had changed, so we ended up at The Artful Dodger


Thirty years ago today

            I was on time to meet Chris and he was on time to pick me up. Anna was with him and so I took down her birth information so I could do her astrological chart. 
            Chris and I did an office move and we were finished around 16:30. We got a ride to the subway with Bill's nephew, who wants to be a comedian. 
            Chris and I decided to go for a beer but the Spotted Dick was too crowded. We went to The Morrissey but it had all changed and so we ended up at The Artful Dodger. I played the jukebox for which the price had gone up to $0.50. I didn't work it properly and so my song didn't play before we left. 
            I bought some Steinlager at Dundas West. 
            Nancy called later and told me she'd gotten a job working on the computer for Canada Post over the holidays.

Saturday, 28 November 2020

November 28, 1990: At 1:30 Mike said he was going to score some hash and check out the hookers


Thirty years ago today 

            After the restaurant closed, Nancy, Mike and I went for coffee in a donut shop at John and Queen. We arranged to meet on Tuesday to see "Misery". We were there until 1:30 when Mike said he was going to score some hash and check out the hookers. 
            Nancy and I made it to bed just after 2:00. 
            I stumbled out of bed at 6:30. I made it to Islington to meet Chris at 7:25 but he didn't show up until 7:45. He, Jim Bylo and I did a house move in which two houses were being moved into one by two crews. We all helped each other with the unloading. The customer gave us $25 for lunch and we went to O'Toole's. 
            We had truck trouble so I didn't get home until 22:00.

Hilda Fenemore


            On Friday morning I memorized the third verse of “Lucette et Lucie” by Serge Gainsbourg. 
            My guitar tuning problem continued and the frustration over that combined with my anxiety over getting a D minus made me almost cry a few times while I was singing. On the positive side I was able to tune my B string by ear a few times. 
            When I checked my email there was a response from Professor Teramura who seemed in total agreement with Alexandra that my assignment mark should be a D minus. Most professors would appreciate that the essay was well written, that it presents a good argument and shows an understanding of the material. That by definition would earn my essay at least a B from any normal instructor. Maybe he’s new to this job. Whenever someone responds to a complaint with "I appreciate that you ..." chances are it's just the veiled shrug of a blasé barista who got someone's order wrong. Maybe he was working at Starbucks before this. I’ve lost all trust in this course and worry now about how my final paper will be assessed. I sent this last sentence in an email to the professor. 
            Later he got back to me with an offer of handing my assignment in as an essay expanded to 5-7 pages that he would mark. He said the deadline would be December 18 and the value would be a the same percentage of my overall mark as that of the assignment. I told him it seems unfair for an expanded essay to be the same value but since it was less unfair than the current situation I would accept it. 
            For lunch I had a chicken wing with yogourt and scotch bonnet sauce. 
            I worked for about four hours on my essay and came up with a thesis: 

            In “The Hunting of the Hare” by Margaret Cavendish and “Bisclavret" by Marie de France the outcomes of both hunting expeditions are predicted throughout the poems. Cavendish utilizes setting, tense, imagery, assonance and word choice to communicate the inevitability of Wat’s death. France uses rhyme, internal rhyme and assonance to connect Bisclavret to his destiny of survival and friendship with the king. In both poems the main key of predestination leading to either death or life for the hunted is the absence or presence in them of humanity. 
  
            I had a potato, a chicken breast and gravy while watching the second episode of Quatermass II.
            The story begins just after Quatermass and Dillon arrive outside the restricted facility where they see the meteor fall. While bending over to look at the rock Dillon’s face is hit with gas from the meteor. It leaves a mark on his forehead at the hairline and suddenly Dillon begins behaving strangely. He wants Quatermass to stay away from him. A truckload of armed soldiers arrive who seem like they are almost in a trance. They say they are taking Dillon inside the facility and he wants to go, telling Quatermass to stay away. The soldiers tell Quatermass he has to leave and they drive away with Dillon. After they are gone a tramp emerges from under an old blanket. He tells Quatermass that he came because there used to be a village there but it was all bulldozed. He says that the residents now all live in a prefab village and work at the facility. Quatermass goes to the village of identical houses and enters the administrative office, where a little girl is sitting in a daze. They picked her up wandering towards the facility. On the wall is a poster with a very serious looking man holding a finger to his lips and it reads “Remember, Secret means Shhh Sealed Lips.” The staff are uncooperative. The mother comes to pick up the girl. Quatermass questions the little girl who doesn’t speak but nods answers. He shows her the meteor and she nods that she’s seen it before and that it released gas at her. He sees the mark on her hand. The administrator tells Quatermass to leave. Quatermass goes back to his lab where Pugh has put together some of the meteor pieces. They form an aerodynamic shape that explains why they did not burn up in the atmosphere. This indicates that there is intelligence behind it. He talks to the police about Dillon but they say it’s out of their jurisdiction. The army says Captain Dillon has been transferred. Mr Fowler at the ministry that funds Quatermass’s rocket research is a little more cooperative but it turns out they are financing the facility, or rather a special branch is. He is told that it’s to make synthetic food. Fowler doesn’t like it. He introduces Quatermass to a Member of Parliament named Broadhead who is investigating the facility. He shows him aerial photos of similar projects in Siberia and Brazil. He takes Quatermass to a meeting of members of the ministry but all the men seem to be in a trance and Quatermass sees they are marked. 
            The little girl was played by Shiela Martin, who was in The Strangers Came which was originally called “You Can’t Trust an Irishman.” 
            Her mother was played by Hilda Fenemore, who co-starred in The Wallet, was a cast member of the show Vanity Fair and played Jennie Wren on Dixon of Dock Green for six seasons. 


            Fowler’s secretary was played by Diana Chesney.




Friday, 27 November 2020

Monica Grey


            On Thursday morning I memorized the second verse of “Lucette et Lucie” by Serge Gainsbourg. 
            My guitar tuning problem was worse than ever. Normally I used to be done by 8:30 after starting at 7:00. This morning when I still had several songs to go it was already 9:13. At that point I switched from the Fender tuner to the AT4 and I got the instrument in tune on the first try. But after that song I had problems with the AT4. I switched to the Fender and got it in tune but then after that I had problems again. The AT4 has an easier to read screen and needle. I figured if I could find exactly where the needle for the B string is when it’s in tune it would help. The thing with the B and small E strings is that if a tuner shows them dead on the note then it means they are out of tune. They have to be slightly down from the note with the needle fluctuating somewhat. It’s just a matter of how much. It seemed at least with the last few songs that if the needle was almost completely down from lighting up the B note but fluctuating slightly back to make it flicker, the string was in tune. I’ll see how it works on Friday. 
            At 11:00 I logged on for my Canadian Literature tutorial. On the final exam, on December 22, some students are in other time zones, especially in Vancouver and so adjustments will be made so that their exam starts at 9:00 their time. The assessment will be accessed through the “quiz" function on Quercus. We will have 48 hours to write it. 
            There will be no discussion question next week. That’s a relief. 
            The final essay is due on December 7. 1800-2500 words in MLA format but we won’t lose marks for not getting the format right. We don’t need to stick to the topic that we put in our essay outline. 
            I asked why the exam is so late in December. Since they don’t have to book physical testing centres it seems odd to me that they couldn’t overlap and have more exams at the same time. She didn't know why. 
            She asked for final comments on Cherie Dimaline’s The Marrow Thieves. I said it’s a pretty religious book, which is fine. I wouldn't want to take anyone’s faith away from them. But there seems to be a dig at the spirituality of European settlers in the book. Saying that if they had been more spiritual then they wouldn’t have lost the ability to dream. She challenged me to show her where it says that. I didn’t know the exact page but I said Miig said in one of the stories, I think the second, that white people lost touch with ceremony. Jason found the page as 88 and put it in the chat, adding a “sobbing” emoji, I assume in response to my point, which seemed pretty rude to me. The quote is about white people trying to get their dreams back and asking how to make ceremony better. She didn’t think that was a dig at white people's spirituality. I said the whole idea that dreams are part of Indigenous people's spirituality and white people not having them is a dig at white spirituality. She didn’t think so. She is so argumentative. Other TAs don't dismiss students' comments but rather try to see their point of view. She defends this book like she’s making money from it. She doesn't think that faith and religion are the same. I say it’s a religious belief or spiritual faith that dreams connect one with one's ancestors. She is so frustrating to argue with because she doesn’t argue reasonably and she’s in a position to always have the last word. 
            The idea of the braid and the weaving of stories. Someone said that dreams are tied up with hope for those who have lost it. 
            Someone compared dreams in this book and music in David Chariandy’s Brother. 
            Everybody and Kelly spent the rest of the class gushing over the book. 
            I said Isaac would have to teach everyone how to speak Cree in order for each person to be protected from the recruiters. 
            I had a chicken wing with yogourt and scotch bonnet sauce for lunch. 
            In the afternoon I took some self portraits of myself in my black hoody and black mask. 
            I went to Freshco where I bought four bags of grapes, a half pint of raspberries, some cheddar cheese with onion, two cans of sliced peaches, and kettle chips. The Maxwell House coffee was $5.99, cheaper than it’s been in a long time. For the last few weeks I haven't been able to find raspberry skyr at Freshco and I started to think they'd just stopped carrying that brand. It occurred to me this time to look in another part of the dairy section and there it was. The line-ups for all the cashiers were unusually long. Maybe because we’re back in lockdown and people are stocking up. 
            In the evening I received notice that my second short response assignment had been marked. I was shocked and extremely disappointed to find that my mark was only 50%. This is the lowest mark I have ever gotten on an English paper. She said that I did not follow the instructions properly. I put in a request with Professor Teramura for him to review my essay. This is a horrible year. How can I get "A”s on 4th year papers and a D minus on a 2nd year essay? It doesn't make sense. I never got anything less than a B when I was in 2nd year and now I'm in 4th year. Either I have sustained a brain injury or something is wrong with the evaluation criteria. Coming this far and having such a sudden drop in my score makes me feel like giving up. 
            I worked some more on my essay but I was depressed and discouraged because of my mark on the previous assignment. 
            I had a potato, a chicken leg and gravy while watching the first episode of Quatermass II. A chicken leg from a whole chicken tastes so much better than one from a pack of chicken legs. 
            This story begins a few years after Professor Quatermass’s first rocket encountered the alien life form that turned the three astronauts into one monster. The professor’s latest rocket exploded on the launch pad in Australia a few days before and the nuclear fuel caused an explosion like an atomic bomb. Quatermass has just told his daughter Paula and his colleague Leo Pugh that he is giving up. Meanwhile however a radar station in the English countryside tracks an object that lands not far away. It comes down in a farmer's field and the old man stops his tractor to investigate. Captain John Dillon arrives a little later to find the three pieces of the object. The farmer is in shock and can only say that the thing that fell smelled like “old stables". Dillon is under strict instructions to not report these kinds of occurrences but he is Paula's fiancé and he decides to break protocol and to take the three pieces to Quatermass. Pugh puts the pieces together and they form a hollow ovoid. Quatermass goes to see the farmer and his wife, Mr and Mrs Large. The farmer has a chill and he demands they leave. His wife says his behaviour is out of the ordinary. Quatermass and Dillon go to a local pub and learn that there used to be a village not far away where some things fell from the sky. The government bulldozed the village and turned it into a facility. As Quatermass and Dillon are approaching the area they see another object fall. They reach it before the facility alarm goes off. Dillon touches it and it releases a gas that does something to Dillon’s face. 
            Paula is played by Monica Grey, who co-starred in The Archers in 1950. She was the wife of Val Gielgud who was the head of BBC Radio Drama. A critic said she was less an actress than a finishing school on legs. 
            Mrs Large was played by Hilda Barry, who was born in 1884 and had a long career on stage, in movies and on television until her death at the age of 94.

November 27, 1990: We went to a Chinese restaurant on Baldwin where we talked, ate and drank until closing time


Thirty years ago today 

            I got a ride to work with Chris. He, Bill and I moved an apartment from 400 Walmer Rd to Don Mills and Lawrence.
            After cashing my cheque I rushed home and Nancy called just as I was coming in the door. I had arranged to meet my friend Mike Copping at The World's Biggest Bookstore and so I told Nancy to meet us there. 
            I was a couple of minutes late and Mike called my name from behind. Nancy showed up a few minutes later. We went to a Chinese restaurant on Baldwin where we talked, ate and drank until closing time. He and I caught each other up on what had been happening in our lives. Mike took Tai Chi for a year. His daughter Rachel was now eight and his son Noah was five. I gave him some pictures that I'd taken of them when we all shared a house three years before. 
            Nancy loved Mike.

Thursday, 26 November 2020

Pandemic Ninja


            On Wednesday morning I finished posting my translation of “Rock n Rose” by Serge Gainsbourg and memorized the first verse of his ""Lucette et Lucy". In the lyrics the speaker has twin Swedish girlfriends that sleep with him together but he can’t tell them apart. 
            In addition to delays caused by tuning problems, during song practice my D string broke when I had seven songs to go. I changed it and finished the set by just doing one verse and one chorus of each song. My rehearsal took fifteen minutes longer than the day before, which was already more than half an hour longer than it was before these recent extra tuning problems started. 
            At 10:00 I logged on for my British Literature tutorial. 
            Our essay is due a week from this Friday. 
            The plan had been to talk about both Margaret Cavendish’s and Andrew Marvell’s poetry and how they talk about the relationship of man and nature, but we ended up sticking with Cavendish. 
            I said that she is pointing out that man’s position in the universe is very small. 
            There is suggestion of everything else but man having a harmonious relationship with the world. Giving birth brings humans in to the cycle but there is also a lot of abuse. 
            She decentralizes human experience. 
            About twenty minutes into the tutorial Alexandra’s wifi died and we had to wait five minutes for her to come back. She’s still using a hot spot. 
            Cavendish talks in The Earth’s Complaint about us defacing the Earth with plowing and sewing and I wondered if she was really against agriculture or if plowing and sowing is a metaphor. I concluded that she’s probably talking more about plowing the earth to plant cities and other stuff like mines. 
            I said in her poem “The Hunting of the Hare" the dogs are made almost human with their singing and even the sky echoes their voices. The only thing that is itself is the hare. I said that it is already established in the first line that the hare is out of its element as it is resting between furrows of a plowed field rather than in a warren. She thought my observation was astute. 
            There was some discussion about whether this is a proto-vegan poem. A lot of vegetarian sites quote this poem but I think she’s more against the cruel killing of animals for sport than against eating meat. She may be just exploring a perspective outside of the usual human outlook. She does talk about men’s stomachs being graves for murdered animals. 
            I said there is an inevitability to the poem and a sense of predestiny. Twelve lines in it switches to the past tense and so the hare is already dead. 
            I still had problems with my mic but this time it worked at least. 
            I had crackers and old cheddar for lunch. I heated a muffin to have as well but it wasn’t thawed by the time I took a siesta, so I had it when I got up and it had gotten hard. 
            I returned to working on my essay but after a few edits I realized that I'd forgotten to buy beer and also remembered to check with the Vina Pharmacy about my prescription. No one answered the phone and so I walked over there. It was raining and so I had my hood up and kept it up when I went into the store with my mask on. They said they’d made up my cream but couldn’t find it among the other filled prescriptions. While I was waiting I noticed that they had one of the larger ear syringes that they didn’t have last time and so I bought one. 
            While wandering around in the store I looked at my reflection in the window and saw that the black hood and the black mask made me look like a ninja. It took about ten minutes for them to find my prescription in the place where the counter guy had looked the first time. 
            At the liquor store the security guard eyed me suspiciously in my pandemic ninja head and face covering. 
            I made some progress with my essay, just organizing the information and I was over halfway through with that phase when it was time to make dinner. 
            I used my last two tortillas to make little pizzas with salsa as sauce and cheap cheddar on top. It all turned into a semi liquid mess in the oven but it was tasty. I had it with a beer while watching the synopses of the last four episodes of The Quatermass Experiment. 
            In episode three an alien infection is spreading through Carroon’s body. Quatermass takes Carroon to the crash sight to play back the recording of what went on during the space flight. Carroon recounts how the crew hear a strange radio signal from outside the ship, the rocket rolls and suddenly the sound is inside the cockpit. The astronauts Reichenbaum and Greene begin to gag as if from poison gas and then they dissolve. Carroon is taken to rest in the remains of Miss Wilde’s home. He becomes fascinated with her cactus 
            In episode four Carroon is handling the cactus when a guy claiming to be a photographer harasses him for a photo. With one touch the reporter dies. He turns out to be a gangster and two of his colleagues kidnap Carroon hoping to get a ransom. But Carroon kills him with a touch and escapes. Judith says she thinks she saw Victor absorb the cactus into his body. He takes shelter in a bomb site and is found by a boy. Carroon has lost the ability to speak but with gestures he warns the boy not to touch him. The boy sneaks Carroon into a movie called “Planet of the Dragons” but Carroon runs away when the screen shows a "Wanted" poster with his face. Carroon goes into a chemist’s shop but ends up killing the man with a hand that is now spiked like a cactus. 
            In episode five Carroon goes to St James Park. In a matter of hours he is a shambling mass of vegetable matter with human eyes. All of the ducks in the park die and the trees are stripped bare. In the lab, a sample that had been taken earlier from Carroon mutates and begins producing spores. A drunk reports seeing a large creature climb the wall of Westminster Abbey. Meanwhile at the Abbey a live broadcast about the building’s restoration is being shot. But when the camera pans upwards it captures a massive pulsating vegetable monster high on the wall with root like tentacles. 
            In episode six Quatermass determines that of the creature begins to produce spores it will be the end of human life. When Quatermass gets to the Abbey the monster is already starting to produce spores but not yet releasing them. The military is planning a flamethrower attack but it is discovered that the tentacles have extended into the crypts and so they would not be affected by the flames. Quatermass approaches the monster and begins to talk to it, appealing to the personalities of Carroon, Greene and Reichenbaum and urging them to struggle against the monster from within. Judith plays the voice recording of the astronauts in the rocket before they were infected and it begins to disturb the creature. The monster begins to convulse and it begins to die and fall apart. Quatermass tells Judith, “They won." 
           I also watched the last part of the Quatermass Experiment movie and the ending wasn’t as good. The monster in Westminster Abbey is destroyed by electricity and Quatermass says he's going to send up another rocket.

November 26, 1990: I started making little collages to turn into Christmas cards


Thirty years ago today 

            It was the second weekday in a row with no work but I was scheduled to do some swamping the next day. 
            In the early afternoon I went for a little lunch at this sandwich place called "Chews". It was out in the middle of the developing formerly industrial section of King Street West. Business was slow but I was sure it would pick up as the neighbourhood grew. 
            Whenever Nancy wouldn't be around for a while I tended to masturbate. I thought that I should get together before Christmas with Heidi, Elaine, Yvette and Jennifer. I started making little collages to turn into Christmas cards. Nancy didn't call that day but I left a reading on Yvette's answering machine. 
            I cleaned the place up a bit. 
            I would be meeting Mike the next day.

Wednesday, 25 November 2020

November 25, 1990: I had chili from leftover goulash and a plastic brownie


Thirty years ago today 

            There was no work today. 
            Nancy left for work around 8:00. She didn't tell her mother that she stayed at my place. 
            I went out in the early afternoon to have lunch at the Taster's Deli. The chili was made out of leftover goulash. 
            I stopped at the Bright's Wine Store to buy a bottle of red, then I walked to the donut shop for a coffee and a plastic brownie. 
            I cleaned up a bit and had some wine. 
            Nancy called and I convinced her to come over.
            I called the CKLN radio station and was told that someone would listen to my DJ demo tape that night. 
            Nancy arrived and had some wine. We talked for a while and then made love. She went down on me and then I fucked her from behind.

Stella Richman


            On Tuesday morning I worked out most of the chords for the instrumental intro to “A la pêche des coeurs" (Fishing for Hearts) by Boris Vian. 
            I almost finished posting “Rock n Rose” by Serge Gainsbourg on Christian's Translations. 
            My guitar continues to give me tuning problems but ten minutes less of them than the day before.
            At around 11:00 I logged on for my Introduction to Canadian Literature lecture. 
            For the first time my mic didn’t work at all and I was forced to text all my comments. When I checked with my voice recorder later the mic worked but not at first because the jack wasn’t pushed in far enough. I’m pretty sure I made sure it was in during the lecture. 
            She said that she had read all of our essay outlines even though she didn’t comment on all of them. 
            She warned us that our final assessment won’t be marked until after the holidays. 
            The lecture was on The Marrow Thieves by Cherie Dimaline. 
            The novel is set in the context of Truth and Reconciliation. Trauma is passed down through generations. Not everyone agrees on what reconciliation is. People think differently within each community. Dreaming is a link with ancestors. 
            I said that every First Nations community has different issues and so reconciliation would be hard to pin down. One can only find common denominators. She only agreed with the part about different issues. 
            Land acknowledgments do not change anything. 
            After the 80s and 90s Indigenous artists started getting Canada Counsel Grants. 
            Lee Maracle says, “Unless I was sleeping, there is no postcolonialism.” 
            On Story. One has to be ready and receptive for the meaning of story. It is called “Story” and not "the" story. 
            I said “Story” becomes like a personal name. She misunderstood. 
            Story does not begin or end and includes the ceremony of telling. Coming to story contributes to story. One’s own story is part of story. One becomes the subject when one tells one's own story. It becomes part of the cultural memory. It can be medicine. Story is an event and arguing with story becomes part of story. 
            I said stories need conflict to invite resolution. 
            The relationship of trauma to story. Wab was raped and that is hard to speak of.
            I said that oral stories are free to be written while they are spoken because story can change in a moment.
            Orality creates an interactive environment with the audience. It is a dynamic process and there is no story without an audience. It is a living archive that embodies history. One has to know what to do with story. 
            On cultural appropriation Lee Maracle says, “Move over." Let us tell our own stories. There are borders around stories. 
            She referenced Why Indigenous Literatures Matter by Daniel Heath Justice. 
            Stories can be medicine but stories about the deficiencies of Indigenous people are poison. Story helps interdependence and sharing detoxifies. Stories affirm survival and help acquire shared knowledge and fight cultural amnesia. 
            Palimpsistic: story in a story in a story. 
            Frenchie’s intimacy with Rose was like a vortex that pulled the rest of the community in. She finally agreed with me. 
            Frenchy has his first hard on with Rose. The professor said “hard on” and it's not in the book. 
            I asked why everyone in the story is referred to as Nish when some of the characters are Cree and would not consider themselves Anishnaabe? She said it was a good question but she didn’t know the answer. Maybe in the context of the novel it has become a collective name. 
            On Minerva’s miracle why is she compliant? She has her own plan. 
            I said Minerva turns out to be an X-Man but the professor didn’t respond to that. 
            The whole novel reaches a crescendo in this scene as all the stories come together. 
            White society is divorced from its own spiritual traditions and so I has lost the ability to dream. Ceremony connects with dreams and creates community. 
            I say family comes from shared experience but I didn't put it in the chat because we moved on.
            Young adults require a happy ending? 
            I ask, if Isaac is the key doesn’t everybody have to learn Cree from this point on? She recounted how after years in Canada she dreamed in English for the first time and it was a big moment. 
            Next week we will have a formal lecture on CanLit. 
            For lunch I had potato chips with salsa and yogourt. 
            The TA for Canadian Literature finally posted the tutorial discussion topic that she was supposed to post on Friday.
            I typed my Canadian Literature lecture notes. 
            I worked on my British Literature essay, just reading through my typed notes out loud and organizing the first few paragraphs towards an argument about predestiny. 
            I cut up a whole chicken, rubbed it with salt and curry and roasted it. I made a new batch of gravy. 
            I had one of the chicken legs for dinner with a potato and gravy while watching the second episode of The Quatermass Experiment. There were six episodes but it turns out that the last four are lost and so the four files I have left each only provide a short synopsis of the plots along with salvaged images. The BBC in those days and through the 60s was infamous for trashing recordings to save money. They didn’t stop to think that these shows would be classics for future generations. I started downloading the sequel, "Quatermass II" and hopefully there are no lost episodes for that. 
            So the second episode begins where the first left off. Victor Carroon emerges from the spaceship and collapses. In the hospital he mostly only repeats the questions that are asked of him. The nurse is shocked when she takes his temperature because he is too cold for a human. The police fingerprint Carroon and Quatermass gives them the files of Carroon and the other two missing astronauts. They find that the fingerprints don’t match exactly but that Carroon’s fingerprints have some patterns belonging to those of the other crewmembers. Mrs Green, the wife of one of the other astronauts comes to ask Victor what happened to her husband. Victor calls her Lou, which is a nickname that only her husband used. They find film footage of the astronauts just before the launch and they have Victor watch it to see if it jogs his memory. Before boarding Victor says he’ll try to bring something back for his wife. When the film is over Victor repeats, “Bring something back.” Victor repeats something in German that was said by the German astronaut, even though he can't speak German. When asked in German his name he says, “Ludwig”. One of Quatermass's scientists discovers an organic gelatinous substance in corners of the ship. The police examine one of the space suits belonging to one of the missing men. Inside the suit is all the nylon underwear that the astronaut would have worn over his body. He could not have removed it while still wearing the space suit. 
            Mrs Greene was played by Enid Lindsey, who played Sherlock Holmes’s landlady Mrs Hudson in the 1960s TV series. 
            The nurse was played by Stella Richman, who started out briefly as an actor on shows like this but moved on to being a script editor and from there a successful television producer. She commissioned Upstairs Downstairs.

Tuesday, 24 November 2020

November 24, 1990: I met a woman who used to be married to the drummer for Yes


Thirty years ago today

            I got to 571 Jarvis at 9:30 and the truck arrived shortly after that. Seven of us unloaded one straight truck and one trailer. It seemed like a long day but we were finished at 14:30. 
            I walked up to Bloor, bought some fries and a shake and caught the subway to Dundas West. I walked to the 7-11 to use the bank machine and then I caught the streetcar home. 
            Nancy called from Rakina's baby shower and we decided to go see "Presumed Innocent" at the Fox. I was there before her and so I went for a beer. 
           I met a woman who used to be married to the drummer for Yes. 
           Nancy looked pretty.

Katie Johnson


            On Monday morning I finished looking for the chords for “A la pêche des coeurs" (Fishing for Hearts) by Boris Vian. I only found one set and so next I have to see if they fit. 
            I uploaded “Rock n Rose” by Serge Gainsbourg to Christian’s Translations and started positioning the chords in line with the lyrics. 
            At around 10:30 I logged on for my Introduction to British Literature Lecture. Professor Teramura said that our essay is due next week. I looked it up and it’s due on December 4, unless there's another paper I don’t know about. 
            This lecture was on two poets that further expand poetry as a vehicle for thinking. Andrew Marvell and Margaret Cavendish came a generation after John Donne. The political context of their time created a different set of histories that both used as an opportunity to think about and explore the relationship between humans and non humans. 
            King James was the English monarch of Donne and Shakespeare. James was a scholar and an intellectual and unlike Elizabeth he was not shy about circulating his writing. He published meditations on the Bible, polemics against tobacco, and political writing. He advocated the political theory that kings are like gods. They reserve divine agreement with god, can create or destroy, judge but not be judged, have power of life and death and are only accountable to god. He expended an extreme amount on ornamentation for The Grand Banqueting House in Whitehall, designed in the latest architectural fashion. He staged masques, theatrical events featuring poetry and dance that celebrated the king.
            After James died Charles took over in the smoothest transition of power in English history. Charles was heir of James’s ideas and commissioned Rubens to do the ceiling of the banqueting house depicting the apotheosis of James's and all English kings' divine sacred right to govern. Charles didn’t like opposition from parliament and dissolved it for eleven years. People didn't like that and those years became known as “The Tyranny." People were alarmed with his actions on religion. Henrietta Maria his wife did not convert from Catholicism when they married. She had to watch his crowning from a distance. Some thought Catholicism was being snuck back into power. 
            Charles made Will Laud Archbishop of Canterbury and made changes so bishops could change the structure of church services and made worshippers kneel for the Eucharist. He also decreed that wealth taken from the church during the Reformation must be returned. He brought in a harder line of uniform formal religious authorities and people didn’t like it. He caused a crisis in Scotland where he thought the state church must become uniform with the Church of England rather than Presbyterian. This crisis was at the root of the English Civil War along with the bill that the next parliament pushed through to forbid the king from dissolving parliament. There was also a rebellion in Ireland by Catholics and it became violent. 
            Was the English army under control of king or parliament? Charles arrested parliamentarians for treason. Parliament had the navy and control over the midlands. It aligned with the Scots. England‘s armies were confused whether to serve the king or parliament. Oliver Cromwell came forward with a new army. Under Tom Fairfax they defeated the Royalists in Oxford. This was fought to protect the House of Commons but they overthrew the king and captured him. The King escaped to the Isle of Wight. Parliament was divided on how to handle this. Cromwell's army marched and took control of parliament. They tried Charles for treason and on January 30, 1649 Charles was beheaded. 
            The 1640s were confused and violent. Only 11% of people had been in the war and so some were sad. Royalists say Charles was a martyr. Some fled like Henrietta. 
            Literature tended to be on one side or the other. Royalists followed Roman models like Richard Lovelace, John Suckling, and William Davenant. Some writers were harder to pin down, like Andrew Marvell. 
            Andrew Marvell was from the north in Yorkshire. he travelled abroad and came back in 1647 after Charles fell. At first he was a royalist but after the execution he adjusted his affiliations. His best known poem was "An Horatian Ode” written after Cromwell invaded Ireland. The defeat of the Irish seemed like god’s blessing but Cromwell was widely hated for it and James Joyce mentions him in Ulysses. Marvell's ode on the surface celebrates Cromwell. 
            An ode is a long lyric poem elevated in style and elaborate in stanzaic structure often addressed to a natural force a person or an abstract quality. It often follows classical models from the Greek. Pindar wrote ecstatic choral odes sung in dances in praise of athletes. Horatian odes were more subdued, meditative and balanced so as to not be so praisy. 
            Pindaric or Horatian? Marvell might seem Pendaric. The lines seem to be about the boundlessness of Britain as long as Cromwell is around. It was a climacteric and critical new step towards a new age of republican liberty that was potentially global. But the delirious tone may not be straightforward. Charles was not made a villain and the tone presented him as a royal actor. He was not presented as mean but keen. He bowed as on a bed. These are ambivalent lines. In the metaphor Charles is an actor in a tragedy. His death is presented as lamentable. Although the audience condemned him Charles was above the multitude. His tragic potential is withheld. He is calm, sublime and stoic as if in being executed he is going to sleep. Does this suggest regret? It is hard to tell. There is nothing on Charles's son as saviour but a calm moment that lets the reader think. Keener eye, edge of axe, figure for Charles's eye and axe both keen in a double meaning. 
            The poem is equivocal and straddles two worlds. It withholds claims of parliamentary propaganda and presents the specific view of Cromwell as being non political. Cromwell leaves study for the pub arena. The poem doesn’t say he forsakes his muses for war. The restless Cromwell is urged by the stars. Cromwell is lightning exploding. It recalls gods origins like when Athena sprang from the head of Zeus. Cromwell gives birth to himself. The imagery has him as both mom and child. There is a pun on side of body but also political side. Cromwell is only ambitious. He is an amoral force of nature. This renders judgement obsolete because he has no control. He’s an innovator who melts down government to a new shape and just does it for change. The allegory is abstract and forces debating on how it all came to pass. A spokesperson for the old regime would be ancient. Justice is spokesperson for monarchy and Parliament represented by fate. Old laws get in the way of the new order. Fate is amoral and it doesn't matter if it is moral. Might is right. It is not about justice but rather will. Not just military but political cunning. 
            Cromwell allowed Charles to escape to be captured again. Marvell says Cromwell was a genius. He wove a net that Charles was caught in. Cromwell engineered Charles's escape. He allowed this to use it as an excuse to have Charles executed. Cromwell was the playwright of the king's doom. He is a spider. He’s the Iago of English history. Marvell is not necessarily condemning this. He endorses the new republic. In the history of Rome the ancient Romans found a bloody head while building a temple. It became the head of the world. There is a parallel for Marvell with Charles's head. 
            But under the surface Cromwell may be a threat to the new state like Caesar. The new leader will conquer Europe. He was a threat to Rome like Hannibal and Caesar. Could Cromwell be the same threat? In the shadow of the poem Cromwell, despite his command is a servant to the republic and no threat "yet". Cromwell is addressed at the end as representing only what was achieved by the military power of Cromwell but these arts must be used to maintain it, but perhaps we are too dependent on him. Cromwell is not necessarily a patriot and maybe a threat in the end. 
            Marvell's poetry was not usually political. He was in the service of Thom Fairfax. Fairfax grew apart from Cromwell and left the proceedings alienated from the republic. He resigned so as not to invade Scotland and went to Yorkshire and his Appleton estate. Marvell was hired to tutor his daughter Marie. 
            In "Upon Appleton House” we find a poetic mash up of the genre of country house poem invented by Emilia Lanyer with John Donne’s intellectual games and George Herbert’s way of turning poetry into physical space. In the first stanza Appleton is a modest building with no environmental damage in its construction caused by great amounts of marble and wood. The architect had no work. People are turned into buildings by admiring the sober frame. Of the beasts and birds, no creature likes empty space. We should build homes like the animals with simply contours. The bodies of places should be measured by the human body. Houses should be like bodies and like nature they should be orderly. Not just organic but orderly and in sober moderation. Exceedingly tall people had to stoop to enter. The architecture brings an ethical change and a way to think and act with humility. 
            "Immure" means to close up in walls. "Immure circle" refers to the ancient squaring of the circle to produce a square with the same area using a compass. Appleton is a miracle of mathematics and contains great things within. But the house sweats like a body. In the greatness of Fairfax as a force the building changes for him. The poem is about intermingling of categories. The genre changes and gets bigger to the spatial limits of Herbert’s temple. This poem is a walk through space. A nunnery, a virgin building, quarries, this country house poem becomes a history. 
            The nunnery gave birth to the house. Is it miracle or a joke about nuns not really being virgins? Fairfax back in 1518 met young Isabel Thwaite. She was confined in the nunnery before marrying Fairfax. The nun’s speech to the virgin is premeditated and woven like a net to catch Isabel and it is conceived as sexual. It is Spenserian, as the nun is like Archimago as she weaves the image of nun life. She presents the outside as bad and the inside as good. The nuns are virgin amazons and their space is turned inside out with liberty preserved inside. Outside is prison and the nuns are heroes in armour. The seductive speech begins like a poem within this poem. In the nunnery lies piety and power. The rules will change if one gains power within. Spenser’s Despair seduces Red Cross. The nun's speech ends with the promise of bed companions embracing pure innocent chastity with a smooth tongue. Isabel joins the nuns but Fairfax frees her in a military operation. 
            The nuns fight the invader but Fairfax is like a Spenserian knight. In the trope of the vanishing castle from romance tradition the nunnery disappears. It is dispossessed and the language of Spenser is a way to describe the dissolution of the nunnery by Henry VIII. Procreative lesbian nuns. Of Isabel’s tears, is she reluctant? Does she want to be a nun? Is this a non consensual rescue? Are nuns worse? With bodies as buildings moral authority blurs. Politically even just beyond is civil war. The gardens of the estate are designed as metaphor. The nuns’ gardens are a metaphysical conceit as military camp and fort. Bees are like military drums, petals are flags, their fragrance is gunpowder. He combines war with the pastoral.
            Marvell’s poetry is obsessed with seclusion, privacy, solitude and protection. He is keenly aware of the real world after the war and contrasts Appleton by addressing England. England is like the Garden of Eden but now after the fall people don’t know what they did, what the apple was. There used to be flowers and no war. The gardener was a soldier. The metaphor doubles back. War is imagined as evil plants and weeds. War deprived us of paradise and the speaker needs to meditate. 
            The speaker moves from garden to meadow and discovers himself. The speaker is in the meadow where the grass is so high it is an abyss. An abyss of subjectivity. An idiosyncratic view of the world. The tall grass makes men tiny but grasshoppers tall. Big is small, small is big, land is water. The space of the meadow confounds direction and this turns literal when the dams open so that fishes swim in architecture on the altered grounds. The laws of nature are defied. The mower and the rail bird. The mower accidentally kills the bird but this does not sever the connection with nature but joins human to grass and bird. His imaginative train makes the grass the Red Sea, the harvest dance a fairy circle, the haystacks are pyramids. 
            It is characteristic of Marvell to look for similes. “Cloths for Lily” refers to the Dutch painter who came under Charles as a court artist and imagines his canvas as a blank field. He compares to bull rings before the bulls arrive. Marvell is worldly and he goes to an evocative range. His mind like glass, like a prism or a distorting lens. Speaker goes into the wood and the forest is a Noah’s ark. A church of wood with a woodpecker as carpenter. The poet imagines he is almost a bird or tree. He was a tree all along in the shape of the human body as an upside down tree. The relationship between humanity and nature. Marvell describes Marie and one can compare her to Lanyer's countess in Cookham. He pushes the boundaries of the genre and dives into a self echo of praise as a better version of the real world. 
            Appleton is a microcosm of the world in perfect form. But now salmon fishers carry boats upside down like turtles under shells. They are amphibians. The poem moved from dawn to dusk, from door to forest, but now says go back in. The poem is a kaleidoscope in variety, more intellectual than Donne. But for genres and perspectives and reimagining the universe and intermingling categories. 
            It’s an artfully designed poem with 94 stanzas, 8 lines, 4 rhyming coups in iambic tetrameter. Its dimensions of width are the same as its height, four by four each. A quadrature, a square almost as if like Herbert’s temple it is an attempt to embody in verse the mathematical designs of architectural space. But the greater shape is the circle in quadrature or circle of quads opens with calculation to return but articulated in circular imagery ends as it began with a tortoise whose shell closes the ring. The poem describes itself as the short admirable lines of a house and perhaps resembles the tetrameter of the lines of the poem. Maybe the lines are admirable because they accomplish so much in the tight space of the stanza and Marvell makes this his own signature. “Admirable" means “marvel at”. The poem intertwines humanity and nature and blurs the lines. He is talking about the interrelatedness of all life. 
            In 1641 Richard Braithwait wrote a “Ladies Love Lecture" meditating on women's accomplishments. He said women don’t want fame and no applause. Humility is the goal implied and encircles no portraits. 
            But then came Margaret Cavendish. She was prolific in all kinds of writing and sought fame. She wants her “Poems and Fancies” to be the talk of the town. Her life exemplifies 17th politics. She was Maid of honour to Henrietta where she met Cavendish in Paris. He was in a philosophical circle with Hobbes and she became a member of a Platonist philosophical group. One of her central subjects was science and she wrote a lot of poems about atoms. But also poems on the elements, astronomy and geometry. Bacon in his new reasoning stripped the idols of mind. Everyone has a cave or den and refracts or discolours nature according to impressions from various sources like books or experience. The spirit of man is variable and governed by chance. Eccentricity of individual perception disrupts knowledge. 
            In the 1st Century Lucretious wrote on atomism in a poem translated in the 1650s. Poetry is honey for taking the medicine of science. She thought a world made by atoms would be a dance. Her strategy was to mobilize poetic simile to make the invisible visible, to fill the gaps. She uses poetry at the level of form of atoms as they dance. The words are rearranged for rhyme and they are also performing an atomic dance. Everyday sense might not inform so she looks at fallible perception. Maybe there are invisible people, small populations, whole countries out of sight. Maybe there are also people in the stars. Humanity is diminished as maybe others live far or near. 
            Other poems are more traditional but from a different perspective. “The Hunting of the Hare" is a poem about a hunt from the perspective of the hare. The language is precise and scientific as she describes the hares anatomy Nothing happens in the first twelve lines. What it is like to be a hare. The terror of the hunted animal. Subjectivity is central to the terror We are brought to the death bed. For Spenser two knights are lions. Humans are instrumentalized for the animal’s experience. The men are villains. After hare’s view men are honourless and sadistic. 
            A valuation of eating animals. She condemns it as hypocritical. Humans think animals are here to serve man but men are the most cruel. She challenges the idea that animals are here for humans. God creates humans in the Bible to have dominion. God gave man dominion but as custodian responsible for welfare not to exploit with tyranny. The relationship with nature must be ethical. The poem shows the ethical blind spots. Her “Earth’s Complaint" gives voice to nature. Voice of Nature she captures the scandal of human dominion. 
            In other poems she says animals might have knowledge that we don’t. Birds know the winds, fish know tides and why the sea is salty. “Poems and Fancies”. Fancy is imagination, the ability to form mental representations of things not present to senses. She uses poetry not just to assist learning but to decentralize the human belief that their experience is the only way. 
            This was a long lecture. It took me until 12:45 to listen and type it. 
            I had a chicken drumstick with yogourt and hot sauce for lunch. I took a siesta and then in the afternoon it took almost four hours to edit my shorthand lecture typing so it made sense. By then it was time to start cooking dinner and I was too tired to work on my essay.
            I had a potato, my last two chicken drumsticks and the last of my gravy while watching the first episode of The Quatermass Experiment. I realized that the version that I'd watched over the last two nights was not a film pieced together from this show but rather a movie remake with entirely different actors. It was in fact the very first Hammer Film. This episode had a much lower budget but a lot more characters. 
            The story begins with the ground crew tracking the first manned rocket to be shot into space. Professor Quatermass is in charge and one of the technicians is Judith, the wife of the astronaut Victor Carroon. The rocket has gone off course and left Earth’s orbit. They have lost contact but then they detect it returning to Earth. They achieve separation of nose cone where the men are and guide it by remote control but it crashes in Wimbledon, London. It destroys the home of a comical old lady named Miss Wilde but her and her cat Henry are fine. There are reporters, cops and street eccentrics around the rocket and interviews with Quatermass, Judith and the neighbours as they wait for the rocket to cool. Finally when is cool enough they open the door by remote control and Victor stumbles out and collapses. Inside the ship the other two astronauts are missing. 
            Miss Wilde was played by Katie Johnson, who started acting on stage at the age of 16 in 1894. She had a strong career in theatre but when she did movies the parts were small until she starred in The Lady Killers at the age of 77, for which she won a BAFTA award. At 79 she starred in “How to Murder a Rich Uncle" but that was the year she died.

Monday, 23 November 2020

November 23, 1990: We started unloading and there was this one guy who kept edging me aside as if I couldn't lift


Thirty years ago today

            I made love to Nancy before leaving for work.
            I took the streetcar to Jarvis and walked north, stopping at the 7-11 to get a coffee and a cookie on my way to Isabella. I was fifteen minutes late but I was the first one there. I had time to buy the newspapers before the truck arrived half an hour later. 
            We started unloading and there was this one guy who kept edging me aside as if I couldn't lift.
            They sent me and some others over to the Scotia Tower to help load the trailer. We had lunch at Druxy's. We finished loading at 17:45. 
            When I got home I had three beers and a container of Haagen Das. I did some laundry and a bit of cleaning up.

Isabel Dean


            On Sunday morning I found one set of chords for “A la pêche des coeurs" (Fishing for Hearts) by Boris Vian. I'll keep looking in case there are more versions around. 
            I finished working out the chords for “Rock n Rose” by Serge Gainsbourg and ran through the song in French and English. 
            I knew that a laundry day was coming soon but I didn’t think it would be today until I looked in the bottom drawer for tomorrow’s underwear and there weren’t any briefs to be found that weren’t ragged. So a laundry day it was after all. 
            I had crackers and cheddar and a muffin and skyr for lunch. It was a little too much. 
            It was our first full snowy day of the season.
            I finished typing my notes on the hunting scene in “Bisclavret” by Marie de France and “The Hunting of the Hare” by Margaret Cavendish. As I transcribed them I organized them a little better and made additional notes as I thought of them. I think my essay will be about poetic techniques that create senses of predestiny in the poems. 
            I made tacos again out of tortillas with cheese and salsa but this time I didn’t melt the cheese. I had them with a beer while watching the next 35 minutes of “The Quatermass Experiment”. But that took me to almost the end. I looked up the show on YouTube and discovered that the file I downloaded is a movie they pieced together from all the shows and so they cut out parts of the original. I think I’ll start from the beginning and watch the full version. I started an alternative download that’s for the TV show rather than the movie. It should be downloaded by tomorrow evening and then I’ll be able to properly watch the first episode . 
            Meanwhile, in this shortened story Judith, the wife of the surviving astronaut, Victor Carroon hires someone to help her sneak her husband out of the hospital. She wants he and her to both be free of Quatermass. Carroon is still catatonic but he can walk. But before leaving the hospital room he sees a cactus plant and smashes it. In the elevator he kills the man his wife hired. They find him turned partially into a plant. Judith finds Victor and takes him to her car. After they drive a while she sees that his hand has become like a cactus. He escapes. He goes to a druggist, apparently looking for something to kill himself but ends up killing the pharmacist. He encounters a little girl playing by the river with her doll. She holds her doll up to him and he breaks it before running away. He goes to the zoo and kills most of the animals. The only survivors are the mice, who begin to shape shift and escape. On his last sighting Victor is more crawling than walking. 
            Judith is played by Isabel Dean, who first studied painting and entered the theatre world as a scene painter. She mostly worked in theatre up until this show. She later co-starred in the comedy series “A Life of Bliss”, the drama “A Man of Our Times” and the soap opera “199 Park Avenue”.

Sunday, 22 November 2020

The Quatermass Experiment


            On Saturday morning I finished memorizing “A la pêche des coeurs" (Fishing for Hearts) by Boris Vian. I’ll start looking for the chords tomorrow and I’ll bet someone has posted them. I think almost every Boris Vian song I’ve worked on has had chords posted online. Serge Gainsbourg’s are not always posted if it’s a song that he threw together for someone else and there are a lot of those. 
            I worked out the chords for the verses, the chorus and the instrumental bits for “Rock n Rose” by Serge Gainsbourg. All that’s left is the bridge and maybe some more instrumental parts. 
            Around midday I headed out to the supermarket but stopped at the Vina Pharmacy to renew my steroid cream prescription for psoriasis on my elbows and knees. They have to fax the request to my doctor, so it’ll probably take a few days. I asked the guy at the counter when the post office was moving in to the store and he said next week. 
            At No Frills I was behind a guy on my way to the personal needs aisle and “Jingle Bell Rock" came on the speakers. "Oh no!" he exclaimed, "Not Christmas music!" I bought three bags of red grapes, a wedge of old cheddar, mouthwash, "power fruit" skyr (why would cherries, blackberries and blueberries be any more powerful than any other fruit?), Breton crackers, salsa, and potato chips. They didn’t have the plain kettle chips and so I just got some thick cut potato chips. 
            I had Breton crackers with old cheddar for lunch and a chocolate chip waffle with skyr. I worked on typing the notes I’d made on Marie de France’s Bisclavret and Margaret Cavendish’s “The Hunting of the Hare”. It’s too much of a jumble so far to share, but both poets use various techniques to predict early on what will happen later in the poem. 
            Outside there was a guy walking up and down Queen Street and ranting: “Jesus is gonna destroy you because you’re a fuckin asshole. Yeah so go home and suck your fuckin cock!” “How dare you traffic on my father and mother! Fuckin n****r!” “How are you? Want a blowjob?” 
            I made tortillas with basil pesto, salsa and cheap old cheddar. I had them with a beer while watching the first thirty two minutes of the 1953 British TV series, “The Quatermass Experiment”. The pesto didn’t go well with the tortillas. 
            In the story a private rocket scientist named Quatermass has sent an unauthorized rocket into space with a crew of three men. Quatermass has a US accent but he’s played by a British actor. He’s similar to Elon Musk in many ways but not appearance and personality. The ship is gone for longer than it should be and finally crashes nose down in the English countryside near London. Quatermass arrives and takes charge to get the crew out, but only Victor Carroon emerges. His wife Judith is there to greet him but all he says is “Help me”. Inside the vessel the other two men are missing. Their suits are connected to life support but nothing is inside. In crevices of the ship a strange jelly is found and a doctor who analyzes it says it is either comes human or animal in origin. Meanwhile Carroon seems catatonic and his skin and bone structure has changed slightly. His fingerprints are taken but they don’t match those in his files. In fact they don’t look like human fingerprints at all. Film footage is found of what went on inside the rocket. Quatermass, other scientists and the authorities are watching it when I stop watching. I think the version I’m watching was made into a movie length feature whereas the original episodes were about thirty minutes each and filmed live.

November 22, 1990: She had a blanket over her head so I wouldn't see her new haircut


Thirty years ago today

            I had already been up for an hour when Nancy came by around 10:00. She was being really silly and putting a blanket over head because she didn't want me to see her new hairstyle. We made love after a while. 
            I went with her at 13:00 because she was going to briefly meet Susan. I waited for her at Cumberland Terrace but she took an hour and by the time she showed up it was time for her to go to work. She felt guilty for wasting my time. 
            I went to the Fashion Tower Cafe and had a lousy meal.
            I bought a six-pack of Carta Blanca, some 10-0-6, and groceries. 
            Nancy came over again later in the evening.

Saturday, 21 November 2020

Le Loup Garou


            On Friday morning I almost had “A la pêche des coeurs" (Fishing for Hearts) by Boris Vian memorized. 
            I worked out the chords for the intro and most of the first verse of “Rock n Rose” by Serge Gainsbourg. 
            It was less dry in the apartment during song practice and my guitar was easier to tune. 
            For lunch I had a chicken drumstick with yogourt and hot sauce. 
            I worked some more on comparing the poems Bisclavret by Marie de France and The Hunting of the Hare by Margaret Cavendish and made notes on the poetic elements that are used. 
            I handed in my Ask the Author assignment. Here are the questions I asked. I won’t post my partner's answers since he didn’t give permission: 

            Stories, Dreams and Ceremony: 
            An Interview with Cherie Dimaline on The Marrow Thieves 

            When Minerva’s grandmother bites the Rogarou and brings out the blood they become lovers and he transforms into more of a man as her Catholicism is erased (68). The Rogarou is a deterioration of the French Canadian and Acadian “rougarou" which comes from the French "loup garou" or werewolf (Native American Legends). There are hundreds of similar half human and half animal creatures in First Nations stories. Is using a story about a pre-Christian Indigenous European monster that cures one of Catholicism a way of connecting with the Indigenous history of Europe when the people were more connected to their land and the nature around them? Is it a type of wish fulfillment that Europeans would remember their own past relationship with nature in order to become better allies with the First Nations people of Canada? 

            But the Rogarou’s existence in this story depends upon colonization, as do the tropes of Catholicism that appear. On the one side some of these elements such as prayer, rosary beads, thanking “the blind Christ” and not missing “the Jesus in the heavens” are held onto by characters (68, 175, 199). This shows Indigenous people who have descended from those converted to Christianity, especially Catholicism, trying to maintain a connection with some of those teachings while at the same time engaging in the traditions of their Indigenous cultures. This however stands in conflict with other Catholic imagery that is presented in a sinister light such as black robed priests, cardinals and a pope. In view of the different aspects of Christianity that are embraced and rejected in this story, is Catholicism compatible with First Nations spirituality?
   
            Speaking of residential schools, most of them were run by the intensely ceremonial Catholic church. In the novel Miig is tells in a story that the non-Indigenous people were trying to learn from First Nations how they could “make ceremony better”(88). Ceremony in this reference is tied to dreams. Is it that Indigenous people have not lost the ability to dream because they have stayed connected to them through ceremony? Since most Indigenous people are not engaged in traditional practices this cannot be true. Is it that somehow past ceremonies created a relationship with dreams that prevails? How does ceremony relate to dreaming ability? 

            For dinner I had a potato, two chicken drumsticks and gravy while watching the last of the four episodes of the Roger Moore Ivanhoe I'd managed to download. 
            In this story a serf named Rolf escaped from his lord Sir Waldermar almost a year ago and the law states that if a serf can remain uncaptured for a full year he will be free. But Rolf returns a day before the year is up because he had heard that his mother was sick. He has been studying medicine in London and hoped to help his mother but by the time he returns she is dead. Waldermar’s men come for him and he escapes in a horse and cart with two knights pursuing. When Ivanhoe learns of Ralph’s plight he catches up with him and changes places with him in the cart, so that when the knight’s catch up and see who he is they back off. But they follow and find where Rolf is being hidden then bring the news to Waldermar. Waldermar has a knight in his service who has never been beaten. He is Sir Otto of Germany. Waldermar sends him after Ivanhoe to challenge and stop him for good. But Waldermar’s servant Vatain hears of this and goes to warn Rolf and Ivanhoe because Rolf had always been kind to her. But on the way she is gored by a wild boar and severely wounded. Rolf must save her life while Ivanhoe fights Otto is a formal joust. The start with lances, then move to maces and axes until Otto is unhorses and then they fight with swords on foot. Otto breaks Ivanhoe’s sword but he gets another and ultimately defeats the German knight. Otto yields and admires Ivanhoe. Seeing that they are now allies Waldermar and his men are about to attack them both when the bell rings marking the end of the day and therefore marking Rolf’s freedom. I would have liked to have watched the whole series but it was not as good as The Adventures of Robin Hood because the plots were much simpler. 
             This show was clearly geared more towards a younger audience since despite all the sword play no one seems to actually get fatally stabbed.