Thursday, 19 February 2026

December 19, 1996: My landlady felt right about her pregnancy


Thirty years ago today 

             On Monday I chatted with my new landlady Helga Schlatter about her pregnancy. She said that she’d been pregnant once before but had gotten an abortion because she’d had a premonition that the baby would be evil. Considering that the one she did have is now in prison for murder, maybe she got her psychic wires crossed.

Wednesday, 18 February 2026

Marlene Parker


            On Tuesday morning I continued gathering images for my photo-video of the song “Les millionaires” by Serge Gainsbourg. 
            I weighed 92.45 kilos before breakfast, which is the heaviest I’ve been in the morning in over a year. No wonder I’m out of breath after I do my chin-ups. 
            I played my Gibson Les Paul Studio during song practice and it was staying in tune about half the time until the battery died on my tuner. I switched to my new rechargeable Snark tuner for the first time and it seems more accurate. After that the guitar stayed in tune almost the whole time. Time will tell if all my tuning problems all these years have been because of a bad tuner. It may just be that the Gibson liked the damp weather today and the tuner is just a coincidence.
            Around midday I finished touching up the wall paint above the top bathroom shelf and also fixed an area on the north wall that I’d smudged with pink paint. Now I’m finished with the stepladder for the bathroom and tomorrow I’ll start painting the undersides of the top shelves with the Blue Bliss paint. 
            I weighed 92.3 kilos before lunch. 
            In the afternoon I took a bike ride and found they’d cleared the snow that’s been blocking the Bloor bike lane at Shaw and Bloor but it’s still clogged up from Grace Street on. I went down Grace to Harbord, west to Ossington, south to Queen and west to home. The sun was enormous and red because of the dwindling fog. I took some pictures but it was already partly behind buildings. 
            I weighed 92.1 kilos at 17:55. 
            I was behind in my journal because I fell asleep at the computer last night. I got caught up at 19:18. 
            I recorded from cassette tape through audio interface to Audacity, then extracted to my hard drive side 2 of “Dancing to the Words”, which was my disc jockey audition tape for CKLN. At first the waveform died about a song and a half into the tape and so like the day before yesterday I had to restart my computer before Audacity would record the whole thing. 
            I deleted a few more photos from my hard drive. 
            I used the rest of the water in which I’d cooked the three chicken legs two days ago to boil the good parts of two potatoes. It tasted a little thin to be soup so I added some miso. That helped but not enough and I didn’t want to use too much miso. It didn’t taste like soup until I added the rest of the gravy and the last chicken leg. After that it was delicious. I had two bowls while watching season 1, episode 23 of Combat
            K company is holed up in an abandoned town when the Germans attack. They are forced to surrender and are marched to a command post where they are tied to the wooden fence of a goat pen. 
            A German soldier named Kurt needs a better pair of boots and sees that Kelly wears the same size. He steals Kelly’s boots and then says, “Danke schoen mister”. 
            The Allies begin shelling the command post and the stable catches fire. All the men but Saunders break free of their ropes and run, thinking Saunders is with them. They make it across the river and are taking a moment’s rest when Saunders emerges from the flaming stable in a state of shock with both of his hands badly burned. He crosses the river and faints just as K company moves on. 
            Saunders wakes and continues on. He collapses by a stream that K Company has just crossed. He finds the mud soothing and covers his hands. 
           That night K Company stumbles on a German campsite with a supply tent. They kill two guards and steal rations. Kelly finds boots and puts them on, telling the others he’ll catch up but he is discovered and shot by a German soldier. They escape and after they eat they wade up the river. Saunders also enters the river and collapses on a log. K Company passes him in the dark and then his log comes loose from the shore and floats downstream. When he wakes in the morning he makes his way upstream again. 
            He finds some leftover rations that he has to eat like a dog because he can’t use his hands. K Company finds an orchard and feasts, taking lot’s of apples with them. Saunders finds the same orchard but now all the low hanging fruit is gone and he can’t grip a stick to knock any apples down. 
            Weak from hunger he becomes delusional. He finds a dead German soldier and thinks it’s his brother Joey. He picks him up and begins to carry him. K Company comes across two Allied tanks and several soldiers and they are saved. A little later Saunders is found by the tank crew, still carrying the German. 
            This was the last episode directed by Robert Altman. 
            The German soldier Kurt was played by Marlene Parker, then credited as John Siegfried. She was born Siegfried Speck in Dresden in 1930 to a deaf and mute mother who could not care for her. She was placed in an orphanage and then adopted at the age of 6 by an unaffectionate family. When she was 14 the Allies repeatedly firebombed Dresden but her foster parents lived outside the city. After Germany fell the Russians were more brutal than the Nazis. She apprenticed as a hairdresser and then got work in a fashionable salon in East Berlin. Before the Berlin wall went up she and her boyfriend made the treacherous journey to West Germany. She eventually got work as a hairdresser on a cruise ship and ended up in Hollywood with many famous clients such as Doris Day. She started acting in plays at the German Club. Her film debut was in the 1959 remake of The Blue Angel. She played a German officer who is executed for being gay in the movie Hitler. She was Rock Hudson’s lover. She was on the verge of suicide before she decided to transition. After she started taking the hormones she lost a lot of work because she no longer looked like the guy they wanted for commercials. She transitioned in 1978.





February 18, 1996: It was too cold to play outside


Thirty years ago today

            On Sunday it was too cold to go outside so my daughter and I played in my new home.

Tuesday, 17 February 2026

Dick Peabody


            On Monday morning I gathered a few more images for my photo-video of “Les millionaires” by Serge Gainsbourg. 
            I weighed 92 kilos before breakfat, which is the heaviest I’ve been in the morning in over a year.
            I played my Martin acoustic during song practice for the last of two sessions and it only stayed in tune all the way through one song. 
            I deleted several photos from my hard drive. 
            I weighed 92.55 kilos before lunch. That’s the most in long time for the early afternoon. 
            In the afternoon I took a bike ride to Shaw and Bloor. The Bloor bike lane is still blocked with snow from Shaw maybe to Bathurst. If they clear it I’ll start riding downtown again. 
            I weighed 92.6 kilos at 17:45. It’s been years of evenings since it’s been that high. I’m looking forward to getting off this soft diet. Soups are very fattening. 
            I was caught up in my journal at 18:20. 
            I recorded from cassette tape through audio interface to Audacity and then extracted to my hard drive side 1 of “Dancing to the Words”, which was my disc jockey audition tape for CKLN radio. 
            I made some more Photos sub-folders in my SSD and deleted 90 images from my hard drive. 
            I cooked a potato in chicken broth and added a cooked chicken leg. I ate the soup while watching season 1, episode 22 of Combat
            In a rainy European forest we see two German soldiers. Soon a lone US soldier appears and kills them. He takes their rifles and walks through the forest into some thick foliage that conceals the mouth of a very large cave. He descends to a campfire and tosses the rifles onto a pile. 
            The scene switches to K company where Lieutenant Hanley says they are going out on night patrol in two teams. The mission for each team is to take at least one German soldier prisoner and then return. Sergeant Saunders’ team consists of Caje, Kirby, Littlejohn, and Billy. 
            Saunders sends Kirby out to scout around and shortly after that he comes back with a German soldier as prisoner. Saunders says they can go home now but suddenly there is a shot and the German falls dead. The shooter is the lone soldier we saw earlier. He introduces himself as Lieutenant Joseph B. Krantz and says he got separated from his squad. When he learns they didn’t want the German dead he says he owes them one and would like to tag along to help them out. Even though he outranks Saunders he says he’ll follow his orders. But when Saunders says it’s almost time to go back Krantz suggests a fighting soldier would stay until they got what they came for. Saunders says he was told to avoid a fight and so he’s following orders. 
            Krantz wanders off and Saunders is about ready to head back when Krantz appears and says their way back is cut off by a German patrol. Saunders says they’ll have to hide for a while and so Krantz leads them to his cave. 
            Saunders places Billy and Littlejohn on guard outside the cave. Billy says he doesn’t think Krantz is an officer because he doesn’t carry himself like one. 
            Caje finds a keyring containing the dog tags of several US solders. Saunders is looking at them and reading out the names when Krantz grabs them from his hand. 
            Saunders and Kirby explore the cave and find a hot springs pool containing the bodies of nine US soldiers. The dogtags of one of them reads Lieutenant Joseph Krantz. Saunders confronts “Krantz” and he finally tells the real story. He says the real Krantz wouldn’t listen to him when he said the shouldn’t use the cave. The Germans outnumbered them and they were trapped. After some pushing by Saunders he admits that he survived because he ran. Saunders asks who he is and he says he doesn’t know. 
            Littlejohn tells Saunders there are Germans coming. They put out the fire and hide. There’s a firefight. “Krantz” tells Saunders there’s a back way out. He holds off the Germans alone and finishes them off with a grenade before being shot and killed. Saunders only reports that they found the bodies of ten US soldiers and gives Hanley the dogtags. 
            Littlejohn was played by Dick Peabody, who served in the US Navy during WWII. He studied electrical engineering under the GI Bill but switched to acting. After graduation he was making TV commercials when he was noticed by Robert Altman. He became a news anchor, a radio host, and a TV producer. He was successful but bored so he moved to Hollywood where he hooked up with Altman again, who cast him in Combat. He was a theatrical instructor at UCLA and was a founding member of the Canyon Theatre Guild. He did commercials for Lipton Tea and Paper Mate Pens. In 1985 he stopped acting because of back pain but resumed his writing. he wrote a column called Peabody’s Place for a local paper in Placerville, California.



February 17, 1996: I adapted Van Morrison's "Astral Weeks" as a tribute to my late friend Mike


Thirty years ago today

            On Saturday I spent the day with my daughter at my new place and she stayed overnight. When she was sleeping I worked on learning the song “Astral Weeks” by Van Morrison. I remembered that Morrison was a favourite of my recently deceased friend Mike Copping and so I changed the lyrics as a tribute.



Monday, 16 February 2026

Denise Alexander


            On Sunday morning I continued to gather images for my photo-video for the song “Les millionaires” by Serge Gainsbourg. 
            I weighed 91.5 kilos before breakfast, which is the heaviest I’ve been in the morning in over a year. My arms are going to be disproportionately muscular from doing chin-ups every day with my increased weight. 
            I played my Martin acoustic during song practice and a few times it actually stayed in tune.
            Around midday I set my clean warm mist humidifier going and cleaned the one that’s been running all week. 
            I weighed 92.2 kilos before lunch. I’d have to look through old files to find when I weighed that much in the early afternoon. I had the rest of the hot Italian sausage soup that I made yesterday and added saltines. 
            In the afternoon I took a bike ride to Shaw and Bloor, east of which the Bloor bike lane is still blocked. I went south to Harbord, west to Ossington, south to Queen and west to home. 
            I weighed 91.95 kilos at 17:40. It’s been a few years since it’s been that high in the evening. 
            I was caught up in my journal at 18:16. 
            I started trying to record from cassette tape through audio interface to Audacity but the audio wasn’t showing up as a waveform in Audacity. I tried to recheck my settings and even the connections but nothing seemed to be wrong. Finally I just restarted my computer and then it worked. I recorded what I’d labeled as “Copyright Tape”. I had mailed it to myself more than thirty years ago but the envelope had worn out and there was no sealed proof anymore, so I just recorded it. The whole tape only contains one song, which is my 14 minute long “Portrait of My Quicksilver Headdress”. So now it’s digitized. It’s one song I never recorded other than on this tape even though Brian Haddon and I performed it when I featured at the Art Bar Reading Series probably about 29 years ago. At that venue the features were required to provide copies of the poems for the audience to read and so what I did was write the whole song out on one long piece of old style perforated printer paper that was passed around the room like a snake as we performed. 
            I made some more sub-folders for photos in my SSD and deleted several more images from my hard drive. 
            I boiled three chicken legs and combined one of them with pho broth and shin ramen. I had the soup with a glass of Creemore while watching season 1, episode 21 of Combat.
            K Company is reconning a town when Germans open fire from various windows. Grenades take out the machine gun nests. A lone elderly Frenchman emerges to tell them that the Germans are holding five children, himself and the librarian in the library. Lieutenant tells his men to fall back and he contacts the command post. He learns they are going to shell the library in about three hours. 
            So Hanley goes in solo to try to rescue the children. Lieutenant Liebner is the German officer in charge. He catches the old man Marcel reading the children the history of France and orders all of the books burned. Liebner fancies the librarian Annette and takes her to the wine store for a glass. When he has finished he leaves but she lingers and Hanley comes out of hiding. She tells him to leave and runs away. 
            Hanley goes through a basement window of the library but finds the door locked from the outside. Annette sees him go in from an upper window and makes an excuse that one of the children is cold and she needs a blanket from the basement. She goes down to tell Hanley to leave. He tells her the Allies are going to shell the library. She thinks that if she tells Liebner they will leave. Marcel comes down, then a soldier. Hanley fights and stabs the soldier. Liebner comes looking for Annette. Marcel creates a distraction by attacking Liebner with a knife and Liebner shoots him. Annette says Marcel killed the other soldier. 
            The door is locked and Hanley is trapped again. Annette writes a note and gives it to the oldest child. Then she pretends to give in to Liebner’s advances and asks that they go to the wine shop and finish their drink. The boy brings the note to Hanley telling him where everyone is. While Annette distracts Liebner, Hanley rescues the children. Liebner sees them running away and fires after them. He is about to kill Annette when the shelling begins and he dies. 
           After the children are safe Hanley takes Saunders back to look for Annette but they find she’s been killed by the shelling. They claim there was no other way. Hanley reluctantly agrees. I say if even one innocent dies in war it should be considered a war crime. 
            Annette was played by Denise Alexander. She earned a Bachelors degree in Arts and Sciences. She made her TV debut in an episode of Dimension X in 1950. She made her feature film debut in Crime in the Streets in 1956. She played Susan Hunter Martin on Days of Our Lives from 1966 to 1973. When she left Days of Our Lives for General Hospital she was the highest paid daytime TV actress. She appeared in 1117 episodes of General Hospital as Dr. Lesley Webber. She played Mary McKinnon on Another World from 1986 to 1989. She was a published photographer.




February 16, 1996: I heard that my friend Mike Copping had died


Thirty years ago today

            On Friday I got a call from Peter Copping, the brother of my friend Mike Copping. He told me that the previous weekend Mike had died of a heart attack in the kitchen of his home outside London, Ontario. He was surrounded by his wife and two children when he passed away. I felt very sad and cried for a few days. I picked up my four and a half year old daughter for the weekend and told her I needed a hug. We went to the Rustic Cosmo Café for a poetry open stage and Raven was there.