Early Saturday morning was the first in a
long time when it was so chilly that I had to close my windows. It warmed up
later.
I
continued to edit “J’suis snob” by Boris Vian on my Christian’s Translations
blog.
I
worked on translating the extra lyrics that I found for “Oh mon amour baiser”
by Serge Gainsbourg. Since “baiser" can mean both “kiss” and
"fuck" it wasn't really possible to find one word that plays with the
double meaning in English and so I just went with "kiss". The song is
basically a list of places and ways to kiss and I needed rhyming English
versions of the final list:
Baiser sein (kiss breast)
Baiser ventre (kiss stomach)
Baiser rein (kiss kidney - but kidney is
also a sexual reference, as in "reach my kidneys")
Baiser hanche (kiss haunch)
Baiser cuisse (kiss thigh)
Baiser tout (kiss all)
I
went with:
Kiss my breast
Kiss my paunch
Kiss my sex
Kiss my haunch
Kiss my thigh
Kiss the rest
It
was still a bit chilly when I was getting ready to leave for the food bank. I
considered wearing jeans but it looked like it would warm up while I was in the
line-up and so I wore shorts and sandals. I putt a long sleeved shirt in my
backpack just in case. The food bank line up was much longer than the week
before but then it was abnormally short because of the rain. This would
probably be the last long line-up of August.
When
I was locking my bike in front of 1499 Queen West, Bart was there for the first
time in a long time, blurting out things due to his condition. He said, “He
can’t afford schoolbooks! That’s why he’s fucking stupid!”
Veronica
was already there and I took my place four places after her and behind a blue
cart. I walked back up to chat with her. She told me she’d started reading my
Food Bank Adventures at newz4u.ca. At first she began reading the most recent
but then decided that it would b better to start from the beginning. She said
that she took issue with my portrayal of a Christian woman’s happiness as
mental illness. I remembered the person she was talking about and I’ve seen the
woman a few times since I wrote that. She was referring to “Hypermanic Joy”, my
September 11, 2017 post. The woman in question had been extremely exuberant
during the waiting period and had told several strangers that they were “good”,
“beautiful” and “pretty”. I explained her elation as probably being a hypomanic
episode and Veronica was offended that I was denying that she could have been
happy simply because she was a Christian. If just being a Christian gave people
that level of elation we would be surrounded by ecstatic people all over North
America. I told Veronica that I’ve met lots of bipolar people that on the upper
end of their mood swings could almost convince someone that they were a divine
being, but it had nothing to do with their religious beliefs.
Veronica
told me she was enjoying my posts because there are a lot of characters and
they seem like players in a soap opera. I’d never thought of them as soap
operatic but I think a TV show about a fictional weekly food bank would be
unique and interesting. It could be like one of those edgy sitcoms that often
deals with very serious issues while at the same time being funny.
Someone
called out my name and it was Moses, one of my former yoga students from when I
volunteered as a teacher at PARC. He was wearing a t-shirt with the message,
“Don’t Drink and Derive”. He asked how my French studies were doing. I told him
that I’d completed second year FSL at U of T but that it had been very
difficult and so I’d decided a few years ago to leave the FSL minor for the
last and to work on improving my French on my own. Recently however, upon
entering fourth year I’d realized that my minors of FSL and Philosophy were
just dragging my GPA down and so I requested to change from an English Major to
an English Specialist. That way I could drop FSL and Philosophy, and keep
studying French on my own without suffering academically for it. I won’t find
out if they’ll allow it until September.
He
asked if I have any postgraduate plans and I told him that I’m hoping to go for
the Masters Degree in Creative Writing, but they only accept seven students a
year for that program. I said I'd taken a Creative Writing course last winter
with Albert Moritz, the new poet laureate of Toronto, and that he’s been
helping me edit my book towards publication.
Moses
told me that he’d be auditing a couple of Yiddish courses at U of T this fall.
I said that could be fun, since there’s so much humour in Yiddish. He informed
me that Yiddish was his first language and he is fluent and so I assume it’s
not a Yiddish language course he’ll be auditing but maybe a Yiddish culture
course.
We
talked about language as technology and how it transforms over time. He said
he’d recently read a book about the history of the semicolon, from the time it
first appeared, two years after Columbus set sail and found the new world. I
mentioned how aspects of our language have changed drastically even over two
hundred years. For example, it wasn’t that long ago when the word “girl”
referred to both a male and female child. Very recently we have the expanded
definition of the word “genocide” that has gotten some people worked up in
protest.
Moses
told me that he’d recently had a tumour removed and since it had been on his
heart he wrote the tumour a love poem.
I recounted how
just a day before that I’d had a dream in which I learned that songs are the
flowers of truth.
We said goodbye
and Moses continued west.
I was surprised to
see that Graham was back in the food bank line-up, even though he must have
gotten paid the day before. I asked, “What are you doing here?” and he
answered, “I’m hedging my bets.” He explained that he’d reported his income to
Ontario Works and wanted to see how much they deduct from his next cheque
before he spends what might have to be rent money on groceries. It turns out
that even though we are both on Ontario Works, his situation is different and
social services actually sends money directly to his landlord. I hadn’t known
that was something that happens but he explained that it’s a deal that Ontario
Works makes with landlords to keep tenants from being evicted if they fall two
months behind on the rent. This is called “pay direct” and they will also pay
for utilities like electricity and heating in the same way.
I talked a little
more with Veronica and she wanted to argue towards the existence of god,
asking, “How did the universe get here if there is no god?” I countered, “How
did god get here?” If god could just be without a creator then so could the
universe.
She declared that
there is no proof of creation but there is also no proof of evolution. I
laughed and said, “Of course there’s proof of evolution! There are fossils!”
There are also artefacts. Now there is also genetic proof. She challenged,
"Then how did life start?" That's actually a very good question.
Graham mentioned panspermia, the idea that life on Earth was seeded from
elsewhere in the universe. Most scientists think that life just came about on
Earth as a result of the right conditions, the right amount of certain chemicals
combining, the right amount of heat, the right amount of electricity and the
right amount of water. The conditions for new life forming from scratch no
longer exist on our planet and it was probably a one in a zillion chance that
it would have happened in the first place.
Graham was talking
about the mostly useless items that are offered on the first set of shelves in
the food bank. I mentioned the taco kits and he added that there’s never
anything offered to put I them unless you want a taco shell with tomato sauce
or flavoured mustard. Of the canned goods he said he gets tired of the
chickpeas, since there's nothing much that one can do with them but put them in
a blender and make hummus. I told him that I put oil and garlic on them and
it’s pretty good. His final complaint was about the bread and the fact that
it's not sliced. He said it's good bread but he can't fit it in the toaster. I
told him that for me a toaster would just be another thing to clean and
something that takes up counter space. Ever since I left home as a teenager, if
I’ve had access to a kitchen I've just used the oven to make toast. I related
how when I was a kid we had an art deco toaster with doors the swung up and
down. One would put the bread on the door while it was lying down and swing it
up close it. One turned it on by plugging it in. Of course it didn’t toast both
sides and so the bread had to be flipped.
While we were
talking about bread, Mo was walking by and stopped to say hello to me. I held
out my hand to shake his and he instead grabbed my forearm and so I clasped his
as well. He asked us what the difference is between "beauty" and
"beautiful". I said "beauty" is a noun and Graham said,
"beautiful” is an adjective. Mo was not satisfied with our answer and went
on to declare that the sun is beautiful and what we see is beauty. Mo was
slurring his words and appeared drunk. Graham tried to shake his hand but Mo
said he doesn’t shake hands but only does the arm clasp. I've heard him say
that before but I've also had him shake my hand. He continued east.
Graham said that
where he lives near King and Dufferin is packed and chaotic now that the
Canadian National Exhibition is on. I added, "And then there's the air
show" expecting to find an ally in hating it, but it turns out that the
air show is the only thing Graham likes about the Ex. He shared that "Top
Gun" is one of his favourite movies. I told him about a movie from 1994
called “Sleep With Me". It stars Meg Tilly in her last Hollywood film
before moving back to Canada to raise her children. There’s nothing outstanding
about the film as a whole except for a scene during a party in which Quentin
Tarantino explains to some other guests the homoerotic subtext of the movie
“Top Gun".
Marlina didn’t
seem to be there this week and there were no numbers given out. Valdene the
manager barked that if we weren’t in line we couldn’t go downstairs. Given that
everyone she was yelling at was in line it seemed like she just wanted to hear
her own voice being authoritative.
It took a long
time for them to open and it was after 11:00 by the time the line got moving.
From the shelves I
got a box of oven baked corn crackers, a 60-gram pack of pecan pinwheels and a
can of chickpeas.
Considering how
Graham and I had been talking about how they were always there, ironically
there were no taco kits this time. There were boxes of Cheerios and granola
bars among other things that I didn’t take.
I reached for some
of the “Organic Slammers" pureed fruit snacks but Larissa told me they are
baby food. “They're not baby food!" I argued. They're marketed for kids,
as there's a drawing of a boy on a skateboard on each container, but they
aren’t baby food. She insisted that she'd seen the box they came in and they
are baby food. I looked at the Slammer Snacks website and the splash image is a
photo of a ten year old kid kicking a soccer ball. Maybe on the box that
Larissa saw was the name Baby Gourmet, which is the parent company of Slammer
Snacks.
Angie had 2% and
3% milk but that’s too much fat for me so I took a 900 ml bottle of Happy
Planet mango and passionfruit smoothie. Angie said I could take two. I didn't
want yogourt, eggs or frozen hot dogs, but Angie said for me to wait. She spent
about a minute digging to the bottom of the generic frozen meat bin. She pulled
out a 450-gram pack of frozen extra lean minced turkey. I took it and
appreciated her getting it for me. As I was stepping away she asked if I wanted
a big bag of lentil soup. I said, “OK” and she reached into the freezer behind
her to grab a 3.68-kilo bag of frozen yellow lentil soup. I exclaimed, “That
really is big bag of lentil soup!” She confirmed, “It sure is! Keep it frozen!”
I could have used the bag of frozen soup as a weapon.
From the bread
section I took a stone-baked rectangular medium pizza-sized flatbread and three
cheese bagels.
Sylvia gave me a
680-gram back of little potatoes, two oranges, a couple of mandarins and a pair
of apples. From the “Take what you want” section I grabbed the firmest five
from a box of overripe plums.
The giant bag of
soup and the meat were a good score but it sure was a long wait in line to get
them.
I went home to put
my food away. Before I headed back out to the supermarket my next-door
neighbour Benji told me that our upstairs neighbour had his place broken into
the night before while he was in bed sleeping. He woke up and found his door
broken. We speculated that it must have been someone David knew because it
wouldn’t have been likely that they’d get into the building without a key
unless someone let them in. He has lost his building key on more than one
occasion. I locked my door when I left.
From No Frills I
got a plastic basket of Ontario grapes, two bags of black sable grapes, two
bags of cherries, a half pint of raspberries, a basket of peaches, three
containers of Greek yogourt, some mouthwash and some shampoo. When I left the
supermarket I only had change in my pocket.
I had a beef patty
and a big pretzel for lunch.
I did some
exercises in the afternoon and then took a bike ride to Bloor and Bathurst,
south to Queen and then home.
I worked on my
journal.
For dinner I
heated the frozen chicken nuggets that I got from the food bank a few weeks
before and watched an episode of Wagon Train.
This story begins
with a young man named Tom unknowingly comes too close to a campsite of
outlaws. Their leader, the Laramie Kid thinks Tom is there to get the reward
for his head but Tom doesn’t know what he's talking about. In Tom's pocket the
Kid finds a land patent that Tom’s father earned for fighting in the Civil War
and which he’d passed down to him. When the Kid cruelly rips it up Tom grabs a
gun from one of the outlaws and fatally shoots the Kid. One of them shoots and
wounds Tom and then they take him to a tree to hang. Just then they hear a posse
coming and they leave Tom for dead. On the wagon train a wealthy woman named
Mary Halstead is travelling out west in hope of tracking down the son she’d
abandoned when he was a baby. She has only a few months to live and so she
wants to find her boy before he dies. When the wagon train finds Tom still
alive Mary is hopeful that it's her son Earl but his scar is on the wrong hand.
Nonetheless she feels maternal towards Tom and nurses him back to health.
Meanwhile the Laramie gang are out for revenge on the man that killed their
leader. Not realizing that Tom is on the wagon train they try to lure it into
an ambush to rob it but Tom recognizes and shoots one of them. As the man is
dying he says, “First you got Earl and now me!” Tom suddenly realizes that the
Laramie Kid was Mary's son. He tries to keep the fact that he killed her son a
secret from her but a lawyer that she had hired to track Earl down tells her
that her son was the Kid. Mary is upset and sends Tom away. He is captured by
the Laramie gang while confronting the lawyer on the trail. They take Tom to
hang him again. When Mary learns from the lawyer that Tom is about to be
killed, she goes to him even though she is now so weak she can barely walk. She
finds the gang about hang Tom and proves to them she is the Kid’s mother. She
pleads with them not to kill Tom and argues that Earl would have listened to
her. The new leader decides that she may be right but he has to kill one of the
men who is not convinced. As the gang rides away, Mary dies in Tom’s arms.
Mary was played by
the great Agnes Moorhead, who started out as a child singing in church and
later became a dancer and singer in the St Louis Opera. She earned a Doctorate
in Literature. In the late 1920s she became involved radio acting and was the
voice of many famous characters. When she signed a contract with MGM pictures
she insisted that she still be allowed to work in radio. She was so versatile
that she was impossible to typecast. She was nominated for an Oscar for her
role in The Magnificent Ambersons and then three more times after that. She was
the first woman to host the Oscars. One of her most acclaimed television roles
was in The Twilight Zone episode, "The Invaders" in which she plays a
mute woman alone in a remote prairie farmhouse being confronted by tiny aliens
from outer space. Her most famous part on television was that of Endora the
witch on Bewitched.