June 27, 1993: I bought my daughter a coin eating monster

Thirty years ago today 

            On Sunday I left for work at 9:00. I had plenty of time to get to Steve Timmins's place but I screwed up because I forgot that Dundas curves east from Roncesvalles and I kept on walking south. Anyway I was only seven minutes late but Steve hadn't been expecting me because he'd thought that I'd been booked for the Sunday before. However no other model showed up and so I posed for the session and got $35 cash. I checked out a garage sale in that neighbourhood and then I went to Main and while walking home I stopped at another where I bought a coin eating monster for my daughter. Then I went to Queen Street and bought the pen that I used to write this. I went home to do some writing and typing, then I watched TV and went to bed at around 3:00 on Monday.

Dianne Foster

            On Sunday morning I finished memorizing "Shanghai" by Serge Gainsbourg and looked for the chords. No one has posted them and so tomorrow I'll start working them out. I think it's a pretty simple song so it shouldn't take long. 

            I played my Martin acoustic guitar while recording song practice. I think I did better than usual with all the songs and I broke this years record of how many I got through before the battery timed out. I didn't get cut off until the second verse of "Like a Boomerang". Twenty more days left in this year's recording project and then I'll just relax and practice the songs without any pressure until next June. Hopefully from among all these recordings there'll be at least a few takes good enough that after I upload them I'll feel like I can start practicing new songs. 

            I weighed 84.8 kilos before breakfast. 

            Around midday I used a hammer and screwdriver to rip up another kitchen tile. There's just one more in front of the stove but there are four more under the stove. I was going to leave those alone but two of them show a bit at the side and so I might as well pull the stove out and remove the rest. 

            Many years ago the landlord installed a thermostat in the hallway outside my door but what has bugged me about it is that the temperature has been set at Fahrenheit for all this time. Today I finally decided to do something about it and looked up how to change a Honeywell thermostat to Celsius. I had to find instructions for this really old model because the more modern thermostats have a Menu button. I found out that one has to press both the up and down arrows at the same time, then number 1 is displayed, then again and number 5, then again and number 13, then finally again and 14 shows up. On the lower right from the 14 is a 0 indicating Fahrenheit. I had to then push the up button to change it to 1, and then push the "Run" button. Then the temperature changed to Celsius just in time for Canada Day next week. 

            I weighed 85 kilos before lunch. I had Triscuits with labneh and a glass of limeade.

            In the afternoon I took a bike ride downtown and back. The Gay Pride parade was going down Yonge and though I walked my bike along with it last year and found it interesting, I also found it time consuming. This time I went down St Nicholas and then went to Bay and then south. Then I saw that Dundas was blocked off for the parade and was surprised at first until I remembered that there's construction at Yonge and Queen for the new subway. I went over to University and then south to Queen and headed west for home. 

            I chiseled some more of the smallest amethyst rock. A lot of crystals broke off. Some of the outer ones are discoloured with yellow. I don't know if they were like that before or if it was the vinegar that did it. 

            I weighed 84.1 kilos at 17:30. 

            I was caught up on my journal at 18:16. 

            I reviewed the video I shot of song practice this morning and it was really one of my best sets ever. I think I played a pretty good take of Megaphor. Only one chord in Sixteen Tons of Dogma was slightly off and most of the other songs that made it onto the memory card turned out not bad as well. 

            In my "Annie C's Aniseed Suckers" Movie Maker project I deleted everything before the beginning of the song and everything after, then I published it. But when I watched the final product I saw that I'd also published a false start along with the full song. So I went back and deleted the first attempt at the song and tried to publish the successful one under the same name. But unlike most files Movie Maker doesn't give the option of overriding a title and wants one to use a different name. I didn't want to do that and so I had to go and delete the first movie in order to be able to give the second one the same name. By that time it was too late to upload it to YouTube. I'll do that tomorrow. 

            In my "Instructions for Electroshock Therapy" Movie Maker project I added three more video clips of the MRI of a pulsing brain, each one corresponding to a heart-like drumbeat near the end of the song; and flanking each pulse with lightning flashes. But the last of the three didn't pulse on the beat, so I removed the flash before it and added a longer one. That brought the pulse in time with the beat and I put the lightning flash that I'd removed at the end of that pulse. I have one more pulse to add with a flash on each side of it, then the plan is to have a lightning flash be the last image in the video. I might have the whole two-year-long video project finished tomorrow. It's been so long that it hardly seems possible that it will be completed. 

            I made pizza on naan with Basilica sauce and five-year-old cheddar. I had it with a beer while watching season 2, episodes 2 and 3 of Petticoat Junction. 

            In the first story, Elsie is coming to stay at the Shady Rest while her husband Henry is on a three day trip. This was arranged because Elsie is pregnant and due in a couple of weeks and Henry wants someone to take care of her while he's away. Just in case the baby comes early, and since the hotel has no telephone to call the doctor, Joe sets up an elaborate signalling system. He gives Elsie a little bell to ring that will wake him. He will then go outside with his shotgun and fire it into the air twice. Ben Miller at the next farm will hear it and fire his shotgun twice. Fred Ziffel's wife will hear it and wake Fred, then he'll fire his shotgun. Knut will hear that and fire his shotgun which will alert Sam Drucker who will wake up Floyd and Charlie. Floyd will start the Cannonball while Charlie goes to get the doctor. It sounds like a great plan but Joe decides to do a test run in the middle of the night without telling anyone. Needless to say the doctor is very angry when he gets there. Then Ben Miller has to go away and leave his grandfather in charge, who is hard of hearing. Joe says he'll start a signal fire to alert him but again he does a test run in the wee hours without warning and once again the doctor rushes there for nothing. The next night Elsie really does ring her bell but all of Joe's wood is wet so he can't start a signal fire. Betty Joe takes the hand car along the tracks to Miller's farm, gets Ben's shotgun and fires. But when word gets to Charlie and Floyd they don't believe it's not another test run and so Sam has to wake the doctor. By the time they get there Kate has delivered the baby and Joe has fainted. 

            In the second story Kate organizes turning the baggage car of the Cannonball into a library and the attractive Phillis Marsh is hired to be the librarian. Joe is immediately smitten with the much younger woman and goes to see her any chance he gets. He takes her fishing after he tries to dye his grey hair with black shoe polish but it runs all over his face in the heat. Phillis agrees to meet Joe for a soda but then her fiancé Hal arrives unexpectedly and she has to explain the situation to him. She feels the need to be kind to Joe because he's been nice to her and he built all the bookshelves for her library. Hal agrees to wait as she meets Joe for a soda. The next day Kate meets Phillis at Sam's store and they discuss the Joe problem. Kate comes up with a plan involving Hal. They pretend to be lovers and Joe finds them doing the twist together in the hotel lobby. Hal comes to take Kate for a walk in the moonlight but Joe is worried about her being with a younger man and so he doesn't go to meet Phillis and stays to watch Kate. The next day Joe introduces Hal to Phillis and they hit it off right away, kissing each other before he'd finished the introduction. 

            Phillis was played by Canadian actor Dianne Foster, who showed promise in high school theatre and majored in drama at the University of Alberta. After college she worked in Toronto as a model and as a radio and stage actor. She was already a radio star in Canada when she played Bianca in Orson Welles's production of Othello. After supporting parts as bad girls in British B movies she went to Hollywood where her first role was as a British character in an episode of Four Star Playhouse. This won her a contract with Columbia Pictures. Her first US movie was a co-starring role in the film noir "Bad for Each Other". She then co-starred in "Three Hours to Kill", "The Violent Men", "The Brothers Rico", "The Deep Six", "Gideon of Scotland Yard", "The Last Hurrah", "Drive a Crooked Road", "The Kentuckian", and "The Big Bankroll". In the mid-sixties she was offered the role of Fred MacMurray's new wife on the sitcom "My Three Sons" but turned it down and retired from acting to raise her family and to paint.

June 26, 1993: I got off the train in Mimico and walked to the Lancaster to watch the strippers

Thirty years ago today

            On Saturday I got up at 6:30 and had plenty of time to get to Union Station to catch the 7:43 train to Oakville. The Sheridan College class I was scheduled to pose for started three-quarters of an hour late. Another model showed up, I assume he was someone who lived in Oakville and would go in on the chance that the scheduled model didn't make it in from Toronto. He left when he saw me there. I worked until 16:30 and then went to Harvey's. I did some writing and caught the 17:30 eastbound train but I got of at the Mimico Station and walked over to the House of Lancaster to watch the dancers. It was kind of boring this time but I had three beers and then went to the nearby porn store and bought a couple of magazines. I then went home and looked at the magazines while whacking off. For the rest of the day I flaked out. I ate some ice cream and drank the rest of my beer.

Ken Osmond

            On Saturday morning I memorized the second verse of "Shanghai" by Serge Gainsbourg. There are two verses left and I pretty much know the final verse without trying to remember it, so I'll either have the song nailed down on Sunday or Monday. 

            I recorded song practice and played the Martin acoustic. It's a happy coincidence for the last three days that I've had no song cut off when the battery times out for part A of the session. Lately it has stopped recording just after I've finished playing a song. I did several takes of "La bas c'est natural" because this year I've changed the ending and I go way up the neck to hit a chord twice that I'm not used to hitting on that song. Part B got cut off while I was starting "La jambe de bois". 

            I weighed 84.7 kilos before breakfast, which is the lightest I've been in the morning in thirty five days. 

            Around midday I went down to No Frills where the cherries were on sale and so I bought seven bags. I also got a pack of strawberries, bananas, a rack of pork ribs, a bag of naan, three bags of milk, a box of spoon size shredded wheat, a jug of orange juice, and two small containers of PC skyr. I wanted two of the large containers but they seem to run out quickly. I find the PC skyr to be less sour and thicker than the Siggis brand. I also got a container of a Turkish product called labneh. It was very expensive but curiosity got the best of me. It's apparently strained yogourt with salt and it's considered to be a type of spreadable cheese. I looked up and down the personal aisle for razors and spent so much time on my search that by the time I found out they are locked in a cabinet at the front beside the customer service desk I was too tired to want to ask for them. I also got Vaseline. I only noticed a few months ago that they've started calling it "healing jelly" rather than "petroleum jelly" I assume because of the negative associations that currently exist in the world towards the oil industry. 

            I washed a pair of shorts and put them out on the deck to dry. 

            I weighed 84.8 kilos before lunch. I had Triscuits with some labneh. It's okay but it needs accompaniment to have any flavour so I added paprika. 

            In the afternoon I took a bike ride downtown and back. 

            I weighed 84 kilos at 16:45. That's the lightest I've been at that time in seventy one days. 

            I chiseled some more of the amethyst rock and broke the smallest rock in two. Lots of crystals came off. There doesn't seem to be much chance of breaking off the ugly brown parts without separating all the crystals. My goal was for them to all be in a cluster. David came out of the fire escape and chatted. He thought that the rock was jade. He says he's going to show me his rocks. He asked for one of the little pieces I'd broken off and so I gave him a shiny one. 

            I was caught up on my journal at 18:17. 

            I reviewed the video that I shot of song practice this morning. The final take of "Megaphor" might be okay. I'm still getting the chords wrong for the end of Sixteen Tons of Dogma. The last takes for "Le temps des yé-yé", "L'accordion", "Joanna", and "La bas c'est natural" might be okay. "Mamadou" seemed particularly good. 

            I imported the audio recording of my June 29, 2022 song practice into Audacity and amplified the volume. I imported the amplified audio for that date and the video for part B of that day's session into Movie Maker. I cut out part A from the audio and synchronized the audio with the video. Then I started a new project for the take of "Annie C's Aniseed Suckers" that I performed on that date. I'll probably have it uploaded to YouTube tomorrow. 

            In my Instructions for Electroshock Therapy Movie Maker project I added a different visual effect to each of the last few clips of Brian Haddon singing "shock therapy" so they don't look the same. I then converted all of the lightning clips that I'd gathered at the end of the timeline into grey scale. I moved the first of the video clips of the MRI of the pulsing brain in profile into the main video to correspond with the first drum beat that comes after I begin my final shout of "shock therapeeee". Luckily the pulse and the beat were synchronized on my first try. Then I moved the first lightning flash in front of the pulsing brain and fortunately adding the clip served to push the pulse even more in sync with the beat. So far so good. Four beats to go. 

            I made pizza on naan with Basilica sauce and five-year-old cheddar. I had it with a beer while watching the first season finale and the second season premier of Petticoat Junction. 

            In the first story retired school teacher Miss Keane is coming to stay at The Shady Rest. She had been both Billie Joe and Bobbie Joe's teacher and had been at the job so long she'd even been Kate's teacher. She was so strict that they had all nicknamed her Genghis Keane. Everyone steels themselves for her stern ways but when she arrives she is extremely meek and humble. For some reason Kate wants to snap her out of it and she tries various things but the thing that works is when she has Betty Joe ask her for help with her homework. Once Keane is in teaching mode again she reverts back to her old disciplinary self to an intolerable degree. For instance she tells paying guests that they can't sit down for dinner unless they've shaved. Guests are checking out because of her. When she notices this she becomes meek again but Kate can't stand to see her broken and so she convinces her that no one left because of her. Kate arranges for the coach of the cannonball to be a rolling night classroom for many of the adults in the valley who did not finish grade school. Billie charms a boyfriend named Harold Boggs into signing up, even though Miss Keane is the reason why he dropped out of school. With so many students Miss Keane decides to move out of the Shady Rest so she can be near the library in Hooterville. 

            Harold Boggs was played by Ken Osmond who is most famous for playing the slimy scheming teenage devil Eddie Haskell on Leave it to Beaver. He was the teenager that everyone loved and wanted to punch in the face at the same time. Particularly memorable was the creepy way he would compliment June Cleaver's appearance whenever he saw her. His first film appearance was as an extra in "Plymouth Adventure". He was 14 when he was cast as Eddie Haskell and he was an extremely popular and iconic character. But after six seasons, when the show ended his character was so remembered that he was type cast and couldn't get much work. He joined the LAPD and was a cop until he retired from the vice squad with a disability pension after having been wounded three times in the line of duty. He returned to play Haskell in all of the reunion shows and short lived spin offs. He worked handling rental properties in LA and was a special effects supervisor for Babylon 5. 

            In the second story it's the first day of school after the summer break. Billie Joe is starting secretarial school while Bobbie Joe and Betty Joe are still in high school. After school there are several dogs waiting outside for their caregivers and leave with them as they emerge. Betty leaves last and says hello to one lone shaggy dog that is there. I'm pretty sure it's the same dog that played Sheba near the end of the first season. The dog follows Betty to the Cannonball and runs after the train all the way to The Shady Rest. The fact that the dog has a collar and knows an incredible amount of tricks tells Kate that it already has a caregiver and so she tells Betty she can't keep it. She makes Betty take it back to town on the next train. She does so but it follows her again, sneaks onto the caboose and rides back to the hotel. Kate tries to take it back by walking along the tracks but the dog begins to limp so Kate carries him back. He continues to limp until he sees Betty Joe and then begins to run and so obviously was faking. Kate decides they can keep him until someone answers the ad she put in the paper. Meanwhile the dog causes trouble by sleeping in Joe's rocker and kicking dirt onto clean laundry that's on the line. Then when a skunk comes into the window the dog chases it into their only guest's room and it sprays everything. Kate decides to let the girls keep him anyway.

June 25, 1993: My daughter preferred her toy shovel over her toy hockey stick

Thirty years ago today 

            On Friday after getting up and having breakfast I went out to call Nancy. I agreed to come up to Scarborough to get my daughter. I played with her there for a while and then gradually we went outside and down the street. Between her toy shovel and her toy hockey stick she seemed to prefer the shovel. We played in the playground at Bamburgh before finally catching the bus. Instead of getting off at Main Station we went to Coxwell and caught the bus to Queen because I wanted stop at the liquor store. I let her pick what beer I bought again. At my place she played with the hose and then we went to the playground. I got her to eat a couple of mouthfuls of vegetable stew but she mostly ate a slice of bread and some Shreddies. She went to sleep at 20:00 and Nancy came to pick her up at around 23:00.

Don Dubbins

            On Friday morning I memorized the first verse of "Shanghai" by Serge Gainsbourg and almost the second. There are only three verses left and no chorus so it shouldn't take more than three more days to nail it down. 

            I video and audio recorded song practice while playing the Martin acoustic guitar as I'll do for a couple more days before playing the Kramer electric again for two more and so on. I did several takes of "Megaphor" and "Sixteen Tons of Dogma" until I made it to the end. I was almost finished a take of Sixteen Tons of Dogma during part A of the session but the battery timed out just before the end. So I did it again and finished it in part B. There's quite a treacherous balance between trying to have fun with a song and trying to concentrate in order not to screw it up. My French translations are less problematic to play but I also fumble them. There's a better chance that I'll have a few of those worth uploading so I can move on to new material. 

            I weighed 85.1 kilos before breakfast, which is the lightest I've been in the morning in ten days.

            Around midday I used the hammer and screwdriver to rip up another tile from the front of the kitchen counter. There's one more in front of the counter and another in front of the stove. The depression in the kitchen floor is all filled in but now I'll have to sand down the boards that are slightly higher than the floor. 

            I weighed 84.8 kilos before lunch. 

            When I got up from my siesta it was raining a bit, but it shortly let up so I started getting ready for a bike ride. Then it started a bit again and then eased off, so I headed out. It was misting as I rode up Brock and it became heavier as I went east along the Bloor bike lane. I was thinking it might get worse and was ready to head south but it came down lighter and so I continued downtown and back. 

            I washed and brushed the smallest of the amethyst rocks and then took it out on the deck to chisel it a bit. I unintentionally knocked off a few amethyst crystals. 

            I weighed 84.8 kilos at 17:30. That's the heaviest I've been at that time in a week. 

            I was caught up on my journal at 18:10. 

            I reviewed the video I shot this morning of song practice. There was one wrong chord at the end of Megaphor. My final take of Sixteen Tons of Dogma wasn't too bad. The Final takes of "The Time of the Yo-Yo", "The Accordion" and "Joanna" seemed okay. 

            I uploaded the video of my performance of "les sucettes" to YouTube. 

            In my "Instructions for Electroshock Therapy" Movie Maker project, before lunch I'd copied the rest of the lightning clips and pasted them at the end of the timeline. This evening I removed the last of the snakes clip from one of the lightning clips I'd copied from the beginning of the video. I tried to see how the spin effect would work with one of the lightning clips but it doesn't because those clips have an upper and lower frame and when they spin, so does the frame and it looks odd. I went into the main video to add some effects to the clips of Brian Haddon singing "shock therapy" and I saw and heard to my dismay that the video and the audio were a couple of seconds out of sync. It showed Brian singing the final "shock therapy" shout in my voice. I had a crisis on my hands because my perfectly synchronized video was now out of whack. I tried to cut out bits of Brian's clip but then I understood that I needed to check the whole video to find out exactly where it went out of sync, so I undid the cuts. I watched the video and it didn't go out of sync until after the second instrumental, which is where I'd copied the second group of lightning clips. I was thinking that I must have accidentally cut a lightning clip instead of copying it. So I added the first clip from that batch but it didn't help. Then I stopped to think. If the video was behind the audio that means I need to remove some of the video. So I must have added clips to the video when I tried to paste them on the end of the timeline. I looked closely at the instrumental section and when I put my cursor over the first three lightning clips I saw that they were all three .57 seconds. Looking closer I saw that they were all identical. I must have accidentally pasted the first clip twice in the main video. I removed clips two and three and everything was back in sync. That was a relief. It took a lot of time though. With the last few minutes I had before dinner I listened to how many heart-like drumbeats there are at the end of the song and there are five. At the end of the timeline I looked at the pulsing brain clips and counted six pulses. Then I started putting lightning clips on each side of the pulses but I had to quit for dinner. I'll work on it some more tomorrow. 

            I had a small potato with gravy and three chicken drumsticks while watching season 1, episodes 36 and 37 of Petticoat Junction. 

            In the first story Kate receives a telegram from Vice President Brooks Webster of Groverdale Lumber, Gravel and Soft Drinks. He's coming to investigate the facilities for a possible convention of forty company salesmen. I don't think we've seen more than two or three guests at the Shady Rest Hotel in this first season of the show. Joe has found a cave that he thinks could be easily used for a wine cellar and he shows it to Kate. While she's inside he sees embedded above the entrance a horseshoe that he lost a year ago. He thinks it's a sign of good luck and he pulls it out, which causes a dirt and rock slide and a very large boulder falls down to cover the entrance of the cave. Kate is trapped and the boulder is too big for any men that Joe could bring so he has to hike to Ding Woodhouse's farm to get him to bring his tractor. But Ding is repairing his tractor and it won't be ready until the next morning. Meanwhile Webster arrives hungry and Kate is not there to work her magic in the kitchen. At another section of the cave there is a hole big enough for Kate to stick her head out of. They bring a camp stove near the cave and have Billie Joe cook a meal for Webster while following Kate's precise directions. They have to run each course from the cave to the hotel and make it look like someone is cooking it in the kitchen. Webster says it's the best food he's ever had. The next morning Kate is freed from the cave and Webster finds her outside. He says he's just the advance man and the decision about the convention is up to President Feisal and he'll be arriving in the morning. Now that Kate is free they think it will be a cinch for her to win Feisal over but on the way back from the cave Kate trips and sprains her ankle. 

            The second story continues exactly after the previous one. Kate is helped back to the hotel and up to her room. The doctor comes and tells her she has to stay in bed for three days. Billie Joe, Betty Joe and Joe insist they can run the hotel without her and so she agrees to let them. But with Kate out of control Joe suddenly wants to repaint the hotel fancy colours such as lavender combined with magenta like the Hilton Istanbul. Joe also hires a singer named Elgin Harner the Smoky Mountain Songbird to entertain at the convention. The hotel is a mess because of renovations but Feisal arrives a day early. The first thing he wants is a hot bath but Joe neglects to tell him he broke the water heater that morning. The food the girls cook isn't any better and Betty Joe puts too much starch in Feisal's laundry. The last chance is for Elgin to sing for Feisal but it turns out he only knows "On Top of Old Smoky" and it's the one song that Feisal hates. He checks out the next morning. The doctor comes to check on Kate and miraculously her ankle is fine but she decides to stay in bed and pretend it's not fine so as to give her family a chance to prove themselves. They put on a record and make noises downstairs to make Kate think the convention is happening but she gets up and sees otherwise. That night Feisal returns at dinnertime and says he's decided to have the convention there anyway because the salesmen are trainees and need to experience a lousy hotel with horrible food to toughen them up. But then he tastes Kate's chicken and dumplings and is very disappointed because it's the best food he's ever had. 

            Smokey was played by Don Dubbins, whose first screen appearance was on the 1952 TV series The Doctor. In the 1950s James Cagney took a liking to him and had him co-star as his son in Tribute to a Bad Man with also a role in another Cagney film called These Wilder Years. He then co-starred in The D.I.

June 24, 1993: Leah the obese teen runaway I'd sheltered 20 years before was now a gorgeous stripper

Thirty years ago today

            On Thursday I did my laundry. I went out and made photocopies of the group poem that I was calling The Alphabet Orgasm but later would name The Gumby Bible. I also made copies from my astrology book. A few days before that I had run into Leah who I'd known twenty years before when she was an obese little runaway who I let crash in my place with her friend and who burned a hole in my Hudson Bay blanket with her cigarette. A few days before this day I ran into her and she was not only no longer overweight but she was gorgeous and working as an exotic dancer. We'd exchanged numbers and on this day I called her but she gave me the brush off because she was busy moving. I then called Marie and got basically the same thing. I called Mike Copping at work but he said he wouldn't be coming to Mudds Cabaret that night. I did some darkroom work and left for Mudds at 22:00. I got to Mudds a little after 23:00 and nothing had started. I was the third reader on the open stage and it went well. I also read the Alphabet Orgasm from the previous week and got everyone to applaud themselves for having written it: 

Warm juicy mess, she loved it 

and again triggered the swamp sweet source 

blood red, all over my fries 

over all my fries, red, blood red, blood red

rendering me indescribably blue- 

bluish light of the flames that burned Joan 

o man, we're on the front line 

running past all the wrong signs 

Take me to a place, I'm looking for a place 

but which way at the fork? 

Nothing making sense, hell filling donut 

I am profound as a toad, smog-lipped crumpet

hanging human, the sticky retracting cock 

I'm too much of a voyeur to commit suicide 

I do not wish to hang vasected 

I wish to hang tongue-tied by my words 

sanctimonious, indulgent shit--help keep it alive!! 

Crying alone, clutching my bloodied fries... 

Stop! You're making me want to scream! 

A clean shaven nightmare is good as a dream 

it takes so much longer to grow it back afterwards though 

Begun again, he's scraping it off the dream 

scraggling about the abode with flow

yeah, and it's all here when the symbols are shattered? 

To dream a dream of death alone 

tacky, tacky, tacky, tack, tack, talk-talk 

oh yeah, oh yeah, shake your booty! 

Do you walk to school, or do you take your lunch

to push down the throats of all readers' hope? 

I'd like to spread my body so it touches all angles of the Earth 

I'd like to take your body so it touches all the phallic symbols 

I'd like to take your body, take my body 

create the body everybody craves 

and loves and leaves for another 

What matters more or less? 

We begin again with another mess 

Let hope be born from endless chaos 

Isn't endless chaos a contradiction in terms? 

            There were a lot of readers. Tom Smarda was supposed to read eighth but he was forgotten until I reminded Martin.