Friday, 23 September 2022

September 23, 1992: A dom on Telepersonals told me she was pleased with my message


Thirty years ago today

            On Wednesday at 8:20, I got picked up from Islington Station by the teacher for the class at the Humber Valley Art Club. She drove me there and I posed until 11:45, then she drove me to York Mills Station. I met Nancy near Giraffe's Playland on Kingston Road to pick up my daughter and then we made our way slowly down Beach Avenue while stopping and playing several times along the way. We went to the beach and played in the sand for a little while, but she was already sleepy. She was awake long enough for us to drop by and visit the lady in the variety store beside my old place and then I got her home and put her to bed. Her mother came by to pick her up later. 
            I got an answer to a message that I left to a dominant woman on the Telepersonals line. She said she was very pleased with my message, and I gave her my number. But there was another woman named Lizanne who seemed a little more my type because she was very energetic and interested in experimenting. I gave her my number too.

Thursday, 22 September 2022

Suzanne Pleshette


            On Wednesday morning I translated the second verse of "Sans blague" (No Joke) by Boris Vian.
            I finished memorizing "Lavabo" by Serge Gainsbourg and searched for the chords. I found one set on a few sites that says it's all E minor except for the chorus. I'll start working them out tomorrow. 
            I weighed 84.7 kilos before breakfast. 
            As usual, on Wednesday, breakfast consisted of a bowl of grapes because I had to leave for English in the World class. I'll leave later next time because there is always a class in that room ahead of ours. That class tends to get out early and so I went in before the other students had left. 
            After we were seated I approached Chuanqi and asked if I could give him some advice. He welcomed me to do so and so I told him that he had to stop apologizing to the professor every time he raised his hand to contribute to the discussion. I told him he was doing the class a favour by speaking and he thanked me. He spoke several times during class and he took my advice. 
            Our Saturday assignment will be on the outer circle as delineated in the Seargeant and Swan chapter of English in the World. 
            Jamaica Kincaid's story "On Seeing England for the First Time" is shortened in our book. The map of England is compared to a leg of mutton and a special jewel. A leg of mutton is attainable but a jewel is not. 
            I say she has a Freudian resentment of her parents that she blames on England. 
            The longer sentence about fabric could reflect the unraveling of the cloth. 
            Drawing a map is a declaration of war. I say it's certainly an infiltration to make students outside of England draw one, but it's hard to see as a declaration of war. 
            She says there is no prolonged dawn or dusk in Antigua and apparently that is true. Twilight is shorter at the equator and longer where we live in Canada. The reason is that, as seen from the equator, at all times of the year, the sun’s path in relation to the horizon is more vertical. The sun drops quickly down to the horizon and sinks to bring sudden darkness. 
            Near the end of the story, she expresses some extreme prejudices about the English people and then claims that someone like her can do no harm with such prejudices. I say she is expressing the idea from the school of thought that declares that racialized people cannot be racist. While I agree that power and privilege give power to racism, I don't think anyone is free from being racist and I don't think that anyone's racism is entirely harmless, especially if widely published. 
            What social power do you need before your prejudices are taken seriously? 
            She is being sadistic in saying that one reality has to die. 
            Jamaica Kincaid was removed from school at 16 and sent at 17 to be an au pair in the US. She dedicated her book to Velma Pollard who wrote books for children in which they could see each other.
            The Lorna Goodison poem "Lessons Learned from the Royal Primer" mentions "Jamaica's curse cloths" and it turns out that is where the curse "Blood clot" comes from. I'd always thought that it was wishing someone to have a blood clot but it's really calling someone a sanitary napkin as in "blood cloth". It's sort of like our "douchebag" only it sounds more extreme and disturbing. 
            I had Breton crackers with five-year-old cheddar and a glass of limeade for lunch. 
            I weighed 85.2 kilos at 17:00. 
            I was caught up on my journal at 18:49. 
            I completed the Exit Slip survey from my class for today. There were questions about Jamaica Kincaid's essay and Lorna Goodison's poem. 
            Kincaid's idea of the sublime steepness of the cliffs of Dover being something her views of England can jump from is a type of suicide of her long-nourished prejudices about England and the English people. 
            Goodison's Bombo of the Congo is an infantilized symbol for all the colonized Congolese people. 
            I made pizza on naan with Basilica sauce and five-year-old cheddar and had it with a beer while watching episode 21 of Ben Casey. 
            In this story a wealthy and arrogant tycoon named O.J. Stanley learns that his daughter Carolyn plans on getting married. Seconds later he is hit by a bus. Witnesses say that he appeared to deliberately step in the vehicle's path and that it was an attempted suicide. Carolyn tells Casey that he did it because he knew it would cause her to put her marriage on hold. She convinces her father to meet her fiancĂ© Eddie but when he does he asks her to let him talk with him alone. Eddie comes out of the meeting telling Carolyn it's all over and walking out of her life. Carolyn tells her father that she will punish him by being with a different stranger every night from now on. 
            Casey learns from Stanley that he doesn't want his daughter to marry anyone because her grandfather recently died in a mental hospital of a disease of the brain that is now beginning to affect Stanley and will also eventually attack Carolyn. Carolyn thinks that her grandfather died years ago and she does not know about the brain disease. Casey advises Stanley to tell her and he eventually does. She has another twenty years and plans to make the best of them. 
            Carolyn was played by Suzanne Pleshette, who came from a wealthy New York family. She made her Broadway debut at the age of 20 in the play "Compulsion". She started out as the Fourth Girl but before the play had finished its run she became the lead. In films, she co-starred with Jerry Lewis in "The Geisha Boy" and in Hitchcock's "The Birds". She co-starred with Troy Donahue in "Rome Adventure" and "Distant Trumpet" and this led to their marriage. Her most famous role was as Emily Hartley the wife of Bob Hartley on "The Bob Newhart Show", which lasted for six years. 








            I searched for bedbugs and for the second night in a row I didn't find any.

September 22, 1992: Only through sexuality can adults reawaken the inner child


Thirty years ago today

            On Tuesday I woke up at 8:30. I worked in the afternoon at Central Technical School. When I finished at 15:15 I went for an ice cream and then I walked to Spadina to get copies made of a collage at Kinkos. Then I went to Henry's where I bought developer and fixer. On the way home I picked up some groceries. 
            Since I'd gotten no response to my Telepersonals ad for the last four days I decided to change it to, "Hi, my name is Christian. I am a tall, slim, handsome intellectual with long, blonde hair. I'm well-endowed, passionate, and strong, and I believe that only through sexuality can adults reawaken the inner child. I want to bring all safe fantasies to life with an uninhibited woman." 
            I called my daughter but she no longer seemed to listen to the phone and just pushed the buttons.

Wednesday, 21 September 2022

Frantisek (Franz) (Francis) Lederer


            On Tuesday morning I translated the first verse of "Sans blague" (No Joke) by Boris Vian. 
            I memorized the fourth verse of "Lavabo" (Washbasin) by Serge Gainsbourg, and almost nailed down the last verse. I'll know the whole song tomorrow. 
            I weighed 84.7 kilos before breakfast. That's the lightest I've been in the morning in eighteen days. 
            In the late morning, I started doing my laundry and it was done half an hour before lunch. 
            When I went into the bedroom to get my bedding I saw a bedbug on the wall just outside the frame of the old exit door at the head of my bed, high up at the upper right corner. It fell when I poked it and I found it on the floor at the head of my bed. It was black and greasy and unhealthy looking inside when I crushed it. It looks like the pest control treatment from a month ago is still driving them high up to escape the powder or the fungus. 
            I weighed 85.2 kilos before lunch. 
            In the afternoon I went up to the Dufferin Mall and to Walmart to buy underwear and sleeveless undershirts. I got the underwear but all of the sleeveless undershirts were white. I went to Mark's and it was the same thing so I didn't get any. 
            I weighed 85.1 kilos at 17:00. 
            All day long I kept looking for some kind of message from Professor Audrey Walton giving us a link to our online class. But the class start time passed and yet I still saw nothing. I sent her an email and as soon as I sent it, at about 18:15, I got a Zoom link for the meeting. 
            The class was underway when I logged in. She was going over the syllabus. 
            The response paper is a close reading essay. The presentation is informal. She added her own work on plagiarism, stewardship, and research ethics. 
            Mabinogi is a Welch legend and the beginnings of Arthur, but less glamourous and with more magic. 
            1066 was the Norman Conquest. William the Conqueror remade England and replaced people in power and culture with his own Norman nobles. Literature in English vanished. Tradition became outside the mainstream. The English language was changed. 
            Geoffrey of Monmouth was like a TV historian of the day. 
            The first medieval French literature was written in England. The French had only used Latin in their literature up to that time. Marie de France. 
            There will be queer readings from that era.
            There were big cities and populations. It was a different world. 
            Three women authors: Ancrene Wisse, Julian of Norwich, and Margery Kempe reference each other. 
            Corpus Christi plays and the Noah's flood comedy. 
            Pearl Poet or Gawain Poet wrote the refined poem known as "Pearl", with each stanza carrying one line forward and going in a circle. He also wrote Sir Gawain and the Green Knight. 
            Professor Walton says "kick" a lot, as in "good time." 
            We have to do a poster? 
            We took a break. 
            We broke off into groups for a few minutes to think of myths about the Middle Ages. I talked about the myth that women were powerless and that people slept more. I also wondered if it was really the "Middle Ages" for Britain since it seemed to be the beginning of English Literature. 
            My video image was titled "User" and it seemed that was because I hadn't used Zoom since before I bought the new computer and needed to download the software again. When I introduced myself I said my pronoun is "It". 
            Bede the venerable is the only person in history nicknamed "the venerable". he is the earliest major literary figure in English. A myth about the Middle Ages is that people didn't live very long, but he made it to his 70s. Bede had an amazing library built by the equivalent of a millionaire monk named Benedict Biscop who went back and forth seven times to Rome to buy books. It was a dangerous journey. He accumulated 150 volumes. One book traded for 100 acres. Sheepskins were used for paper. When Bede was 15 the plague hit all the monks except himself and his mentor. They rebuilt the monastery from scratch. He was alone with no English speakers other than his teacher. Maybe there were Welch speakers who were not monks that he learned from. 
            The professor shows a slide of the original text. Punctuation comes from music. The original manuscript has lots of white space and two columns. 
            History is driven by ideology and narrative technique.
            I say Coif argues for Christian conversion with the question, "What has Paganism done for me?"
            It's a critique of the king driven by secular concern. Edwin is related to one of Bede's patrons.
            The sparrow allegory. I say winter represents a space beyond comprehension. 
            Juxtapose this with Dante. The text is anti-Constantinian. The future Roman Emperor Constantine was born in England. He wanted to convert everyone in the empire by force. Bede is different and the conversions he represents are not forced. Bede is an outsider. 
            The most famous passage is by Caedmon. He is the Cowherd who can't sing. He has feelings of inadequacy. He has a Welch name and because his role was humble in the monastery he was probably Welch. Maybe material from Wales inspired the story. His song/poem is alliterative. Three sentences begin with names for god. Old English poetry uses a lot of synonyms. For example, maybe four descriptions of a piece of stone. It creates texture and layers. In the old manuscript of Bede's history, below the Latin is Caedmon's poem. Insider outsider reading. 
            I say the poem is presented as being less important than its history. 
            It is an outsider poem. Old English is less valuable. There are 26 copies. Bede is called a monster scholar. 
            After class, I downloaded Zoom again and renewed my password. 
            Earlier, in anticipation of there possibly being a class, at 17:30 I sliced a potato and put it in a pot of water, I put the gravy on the stove and put a slice of pork in the oven. I turned the elements and the oven on low halfway through class and rushed out to increase the temperature a bit a few times during pauses. Class ended half an hour early and dinner was pretty much ready by then. I had it with a beer while watching episode 20 of Ben Casey. 
            In this story, an Austrian surgeon named Alfred Littauer with thirty years of experience has just come to the United States and has to serve as an intern for a year as if he had just gotten out of medical school before being allowed to fully practice medicine. He resents this circumstance and in trying to continue with his old-school European ways he clashes with Casey. He prescribes sedatives for patients with head injuries but Casey tells him that sedatives mask the symptoms so they can't tell what exactly is wrong. Littauer also clashes with Nick the orderly when a patient drops a ball and Nick picks it up to hand it to him. Littauer tells him that is outside of his job description. He then tells the nurse to wash the ball and give it back to the patient. 
            Casey takes Littauer to a barred and guarded section of the hospital and the Austrian doctor is immediately triggered. They visit the room of a prisoner named Lisa Delman who is there because she complains of headaches. Because all of her tests have come back negative and also because she plays head games with the doctors, Casey thinks she is faking just to stay out of her prison cell. She is in prison for two years for extortion and prostitution. 
            Casey makes Littauer Lisa's physician and Lisa recognizes in the way that he stands in front of the door when leaving that he has himself been in prison. After that, she opens up to him and they become friends. She is honest about her symptoms. Littauer tells Casey that he thinks Lisa has a lesion somewhere and recommends an angiogram. Casey thinks it's futile but agrees to it. The resulting photo shows that Lisa has a brain aneurysm and so surgery is necessary as soon as possible. 
            Littauer offers to assist Casey but Casey turns him down. Then Littauer removes his gloves and Casey sees a distinctive numbered tattoo on his arm. Littauer spent seven years in a Nazi concentration camp and five years in a displaced person's camp. He ran a hospital in the concentration camp treating thousands of starving patients. He operated under kerosene lamps with guards nearby ready to kill him if he made a mistake.
            Casey agrees to allow Littauer to assist. Lisa has to be made unconscious and refrigerated before surgery. Littauer proves himself to be a fine surgeon and Casey is impressed enough to let him close. Lisa recovers. 
            Littauer was played by Frantisek Lederer, who was born in Czechoslovakia in 1899. He became an actor at an early age and toured theatres in Central Europe with Peter Lorre. This eventually led to a starring role in the legendary 1929 German silent film, "Pandora's Box". He became a movie star in Germany and then moved to Hollywood where he was also successful. With the money he earned, he made wise investments in property in the Canoga Park area of California and made a fortune. He was the honorary mayor of Canoga Park for 25 years. He founded the National Academy of Performing Arts and became a teacher there up until a week before he died at the age of 100. 






            I searched for bedbugs twelve hours after finding one at noon and didn't find any.


September 21, 1992: I switched my ad from Casual Dating to Casual Encounters because the women's ads were boring


Thirty years ago today 

            On Monday I woke up at around 8:30 and did some work. I checked Telepersonals but there had been no response to my ad since Saturday when "Lizanne" left several messages promising to call me, and a few days before "Patty" had also promised to call me on Saturday. I changed the category to Casual Encounters and decided that if there was no response by midnight, I would switch it to Casual Dating. I had breakfast and watched TV for a while and then I caught the bus to work. I was at Central Technical School early and worked until 15:15. I went to renew my driver's permit and then went to the comic shop and bought two Tomb of Dracula comics before catching the streetcar home. I tried to call Nancy's place to talk to my daughter, but I couldn't reach her. I cleaned up and then watched Superman. At midnight I changed my ad because the women who advertized in the other category were boring. I hoped I would have enough money to pay the rent.

Tuesday, 20 September 2022

Ed Begley


            On Monday I memorized the third verse of "Lavabo" by Serge Gainsbourg and almost nailed down the fourth. 
            I weighed 85.2 kilos before breakfast, but as usual, on Mondays and Wednesdays, I only had time for a bowl of grapes before leaving for my English in the World class. 
            I arrived to wait in front of the occupied classroom at the same time as Chuanqi. We chatted and he asked for my email address, so I wrote it on his phone. He's from Manchuria in Northeast China. 
            The first half was on our Saturday news article assignment. 
            English as a colonial language: the inner circle. Chapter 1 of English in the World talks about identities. Shame, confusion, etc. Kinds of colonization: Displacement, marginalization, Indigenous replacement where indignities were extirpated and other inhabitants brought in. Pidgins and creoles. Other definitions of English in the first chapter. English defined by its history is the key origin. Ongoing interactions continue to create English. English is defined in the way it is used. TOEFL (Test of English as a Foreign Language) scores. 
            Bangladesh moving from official English to its own official language.
            Some varieties of English creoles and pidgin are special because of their history and form. But some say creoles are not structurally distinct. 
            Northern Ireland articles on Gaelic. Chuanqi said bilingual signs in Ireland are having their English parts defaced. 
            Ulster Scots. Rez accent. 
            New Zealand just has one Indigenous language and so it is easier to support. 
            The Inner circle sets the norms. 
            The Miriam Webster Dictionary has recognized "irregardless" as a word. 
            The Oxford Dictionary closed its Canadian press in 2008 so there have been no Oxford updates in Canadian English since then. 
            Nigerian students challenge the English proficiency requirement. 
            Most indigenous borrowings in Canada are place names and flora and fauna.
            English acquired Latin vocabulary as science expanded. 
            Exonormative standardization: English as the norm. 
            Codification of Canadian English is endonormative stabilization. 
            We had a break. 
            Someone thanked the professor for showing the slide for the article about Lisa LeBlanc that I posted. 
            We broke off into groups for three minutes to discuss how to increase exposure to Indigenous languages. I talked about changing the name of an entire river like the St John in New Brunswick back to its original name of Wolastoq. But the problem is that the Wolastoqiyik people can't agree on spelling or pronunciation. Professor Percy said standardization is a colonial practice. 
            We looked at Lee Maracle's story "Charlie". 
            She uses metalanguage. We are in the language of the characters. 
            The story is based on a real event, which was the running away and freezing to death of Chanie Wenjack in 1966. It was reported in Maclean's in 1967 and the journalist Ian Adams was fired because of the article. Willie Dunn recorded a song about it in 1971. Gord Downie also wrote a song about it called "The Secret Path". 
            "Charlie" has an omniscient narrator. 
            The instructors don't belong either. I said it is a way of expanding the sense of the futility of the residential schools to include white people. 
            I asked the professor if she'd ever seen Little Britain but she said she hadn't. I mentioned that there had been an ongoing skit in which a moderator named Marjorie can never understand the speech of a woman who is visibly of South Asian descent even though her English is perfect. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wFjDzaH3lKU 
            Since I got a notice that tomorrow night's Medieval Literature class would be online, after class I went to Staples to buy a webcam. The last time I bought a webcam there I had to return it because my old computer couldn't handle it. I assume my new computer can take the new ones. One that was on sale for $176 was out of stock and so I bought the 4K Pro for $226.79 after tax. 
            I weighed 84 kilos before a late lunch at 14:15. I'd have to scroll back a long time to find when I was that light before and so I didn't bother. 
            I took a late siesta at 15:00 and got up at 16:30. 
            I weighed 85.1 kilos at 16:55. 
            I roasted a pork sirloin in the oven, this time with just olive oil and salt because I had no time to get fancy. 
            I was caught up on my journal at 19:25. 
            I answered the Exit Slip survey for today's class. 
            One of the articles that stood out was that bilingual road signs are being defaced in Ireland. In some cases, the English names are being crossed out and in others, the Gaelic is covered over. Obviously, a war is going on but at least now there are no bombs involved. 
            What stood out for me about the story "Charlie" was that the old woman tries to dissuade the little boy Charlie from venturing on a long trek in the winter cold in a spring jacket by promising him a fine time. She could have tried to stop him with a logical argument against the dangers or actually stood in his way. By not doing so she effectively killed him. 
            I had a potato with gravy while watching the 19th episode of Ben Casey and also while the pork was still cooking. I had a slice of pork after I'd finished the potato. 
            This was a more interesting and unique story than the usual Ben Casey episodes. A novice nun named Catherine Huett is having a dizzy spell on a school playground when she is hit by a swing and knocked unconscious. Her physician Dr. Reiner thinks she has blood clots in the brain that should be removed with an operation, and meanwhile, he prescribes morphine. Casey thinks she has myasthenia gravis and a respiratory depressant like morphine could kill her. Since she is Reiner's patient, his diagnosis overrides Casey's. 
            That night Catherine has a respiratory failure but Casey manages to save her. Casey says that pregnancy has been known to cure myasthenia gravis. Catherine's father John Huett is a powerful newspaper owner and Reiner tells him that Catherine's thymus needs to be removed as soon as possible. Huett asks Casey's opinion and he tells him that the removal of the thymus should not be done without more observation. Huett pressures Casey into offering his opinion of Reiner, so Casey lets it slip that Reiner is a medical incompetent and should not be practicing medicine. Huett publishes that statement in his paper and Reiner sues Casey. 
            At Zorba's recommendation, Casey hires a lawyer named Sam Bundy who recommends that Casey retract his statement about Reiner. Casey is in danger of losing his license to practice medicine and asks Huett to publish a retraction but Huett tells him his reporters have uncovered crucial information about Reiner. 
            In court, it almost sounds at first as if Bundy is arguing on Reiner's behalf but when he cross-examines Reiner it is discovered that he has been dismissed from more than one other hospital and even caused the death of his own child with a faulty diagnosis. 
            We see Catherine in the end, apparently fully recovered but it seems she has left the convent. There is no explanation as to why. Huett pays Casey's legal bill. 
            Bundy was played in a powerful performance by Ed Begley, who left home at the age of eleven and drifted from job to job. It wasn't until he was thirty that he began working on vaudeville and radio. He was in his forties by the time he became a theatrical success. His first movie was Boomerang in 1947. He was in his fifties when he won the Tony Award for his performance in Inherit the Wind on Broadway. He co-starred in the film Patterns of Power in 1956. He won the best supporting actor Oscar in 1962 for Sweet Bird of Youth. He co-starred in The Billion Dollar Brain in 1967. 
             I searched for bedbugs and for the second night in a row I found none.

September 20, 1992: My daughter and I played in beach sand for a long time


Thirty years ago today 

            Nancy came down from Scarborough on Sunday at around 9:00 to feed the baby. She offered to buy me breakfast at Cultures and on the way, I stopped at a lawn sale where I bought The 1001 Arabian Nights and Operating Manual for Spaceship Earth. At Cultures I had an egg salad on a croissant. We walked back to my place where I picked up my daughter's pail and shovel and then we went up to the nature trail. We went to look at Giraffe's Indoor Playland and then we walked down to the beach. Nancy took off and my daughter and I played in the sand for a long time at different parts of the beach that she chose to stop at. We rejoined Nancy at Kew Gardens, and she fed the baby while I went to get a frozen yogourt. Then we went to my place to change her before heading up to the Danforth. For my daughter, it was a little disappointing and she fell asleep on the bench. Nancy went to a movie, and I took my daughter home. She woke up on the way, but I got her back to sleep about an hour before the film got out. Nancy called to say she was coming, and I waited at the stop for her bus.